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Can I vent?

I am just feeling low today... cycle number 17 is a bust... we've been trying for 20 months now and I feel I have nothing to show for it... I feel like a freak of nature because I can't do what normal women can do... I feel like a bad wife because I can't give DH a child nor can I give my father or MIL grand children...

Thanks for listening.

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  • Hugs. Just know you aren't alone, and there are lots of options still to explore in the future.

    HUGS.

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  • I'm so so sorry. There are no words to convey the emptiness and sadness.  We tried for 18 cycles for Ryan (about 21 months???) and I lost count for this baby after cycle 16 or so (again about 20-21 months).  It blows/sucks/bites and I wish it didn't. :(
    Nobody said life would be easy, they just promised it would be worth it.
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  • so sorry greek.

    big hugs! 

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    ~~ married 8.11.07
    ~~ DD1 1.16.11 ~~ DD2 1.3.14 ~~
    ~~ BFP3 12.22.15 MMC 2.29.16 @ 13 weeks ~~
    ~~ 2 D&Cs (3.1.16 and 3.10.16) for MMC
    ~~ BFP4 10.27.16  MMC 1.23.17 @ 16 weeks ~~ D&E 1.26.17 ~~
  • I am so sorry. I am there with you and it is a horrible place to be. I hope things lookk up soon.
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  • I'm so sorry. I remember that feeling so well. I know it sounds empty, but I always reminded myself that some things are worth waiting for. Your body knows what to do. Now you're just waiting for your child's soul to be ready. That sounds...i don't know...wrong? But when I started thinking that I wasn't the only person involved in the process - aside from Husband, obviously - and that the soul of my child needed to be ready as well, it helped. A lot. Not sure if it'll help you, but I thought I'd float it out there for you.

     

    In the meantime, have a nice bubble bath and some wine and just allow yourself to feel lousy until it's all out, and then you can start to feel better and find hope again.

    Huge, huge bear hugs. 

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  • *Hugs*

    You are definitely not alone. We had a little help.  



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  • There are no answers to all the shittty questions you are asking yourself. And it is so hard....Huge hugs
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  • Many more (((HUGS)))...
  • I'm sorry...

    {{{big hugs}}}

  • Left Hug I am so sorry that you're in so much pain sweetie.  You are not a freak of nature, it's nowhere near as easy to get pregnant as we were all led to believe, personally I had no idea how hard it really is until we got serious about trying.  Do something nice for yourself, bubble bath and a glass(bottle) of wine?
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    Your body knows what to do. Now you're just waiting for your child's soul to be ready. That sounds...i don't know...wrong? But when I started thinking that I wasn't the only person involved in the process - aside from Husband, obviously - and that the soul of my child needed to be ready as well, it helped. A lot. Not sure if it'll help you, but I thought I'd float it out there for you.

     You have no idea how much that quote just spoke to me........ thank you.

    Greekwife: I'm sorry. I am sad to say I know exactly how you feel and it f**king sucks. Huge hugs.

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