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Starting to worry (vent inside)

bmp84bmp84 member
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I'm starting to worry that I won't ovulate this cycle and that we will have wasted $200 on meds...

I finally have a second line on the OPKs, but still not = to the control line.

Some days, I am really hopeful and the last 2 days I've been a little depressed about it all. It all kinda started when I got a "You are 13 weeks" email and it was all about "Welcome to the 2nd tri!" and talked about how the risk of miscarriage drops a ton at this stage and it just really upset me. I should be worried about having 2 under 2, not if I've stopped responding to Clomid...

I hate that IF has taken away the innocence of TTC... I hate that loss has made me terrified to be pregnant again... I hate what the 2 of them combined has done to me...

I want to stay positive, but sometimes it feels impossible.

Sorry for being such a downer.

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Re: Starting to worry (vent inside)

  • SonadoraSonadora member
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  • bbhalphenbbhalphen member

    ::HUGS::  Sending lots of O dust your way!

    I know exactly what you mean about the innocence thing.  I was just telling somebody that today practically word for word as you wrote it.  
    I stopped getting the emails from the Bump when I unsubscribed, but I know a lot of girls have done that and are still getting them.  Is there any way you could send them to a spam account?

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  • Mocha GirlMocha Girl

    I don't have any advice/info on Clomid, but I wanted to say I'm so sorry {{{hugs}}}

    What brand of OPK's did you use?

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  • Olive44Olive44 member
    I'm so sorry hun.  I know what you mean about losing the innocence of pregnancy.  ((((hugs))))
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  • bmp84bmp84 member

    Using internet cheapie OPKs, the line is finally there and getting darker, but still not +...

    I was an idiot and signed up on a million sites for email newsletters, free samples, coupons, etc because I signed my sister for them when she was pregnant with her first and she got SO much free stuff and awesome deals. I thought I had gotten off of all of the lists, but I apparently missed one :(

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  • lsugirljenlsugirljen member
    I am so sorry, I totally understand the emails.  I did the same thing and signed up for everything and can't get myself off all of the lists.
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  • Jenny102783Jenny102783 member
    I am so sorry, babe. I am CD21 and still no O. Let's not lose hope! I am sending any O dust I have your way. I totally understand the emails. I was devastated when I got my first update. :::big hugs:::
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  • marisslynmarisslyn
    I am so sorry. Lots and lots of O dust your way.
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  • writergirl5786writergirl5786 member
    big ((HUGS)) yeah the loss of innocence definitely sucks. but at least we have each other :)
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  • butterfly843butterfly843
    Sending hugs, I am still getting emails and mail with freebies. It is so hard emailing them to please stop sending everything. I hate that I will always be afraid next time I get pregnant.

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