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I started my BCP last night

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And cried for about an hour.

That little white pill made me feel like such a freaking failure.

I realized my Bump anniversary is 3/12...which means we are three days from my year anniversary of my BFP with my first baby.

How am I sitting here taking fvcking BCP, with no sweet baby sleeping upstairs? How am I going to a fvcking RE tomorrow? I should be going to the pediatrician, or to Mommy And Me.

This is a new low point. Didn't think that was possible, but here it is. Ugh.

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  • CLAYLIOVERCLAYLIOVER
    I am so sorry honey.
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  • CamicatCamicat
    I'm so sorry, that sucks. Hang in there. ((hugs))
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  • Jenny102783Jenny102783 member
    I am sorry. :::hugs:::
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  • michroccmichrocc member
    I'm so very sorry.  {{{hugs}}}
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  • momagain2009momagain2009 member

    I hated when I had to go on BCP but when I took the last pill on Saturday I felt like I accomplished something huge and was able to put TTC aside for the month I was on it.

    It really did a lot for my sanity!

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  • OCIrishBruinOCIrishBruin
    (((hugs))) that would be so difficult.  I'm sorry honey.
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  • Texas77againTexas77again member
    yeah, it really sucks ass to take BCP's.  it is so counter intuitive.  i'm so sorry honey.  this shiit is just cruel.  ((hugs))
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  • mgh2008mgh2008 member

    I'm really sorry sweetie!

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  • grr_aarghgrr_aargh member

    I'm sorry honey.  :(

     

    Saturday was the anniversary of our 1st m/c.  Today's 1 year since the m/c finished.

     

    I feel numb and horrid as well.  When I took BCPs after the last loss, it felt so horrible and awful.  I'm convinced it was less s/e and more emotional s/e, kwim?

    Huge hugs your way. 

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  • Amanda78Amanda78 member
    I'm so sorry.  You are not a failure.  I hope the RE helps you get your forever baby soon.  
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  • jdomanjdoman
    I'm so sorry ((Hugs)).
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  • tarynhdtarynhd
    I am so sorry.
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  • uklawgirluklawgirl member
    ((HUGS)) I am so sorry that such a sweet person as you has to go through this.
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  • bbhalphenbbhalphen member
    I'm so sorry.  OUr dates are very similar-I just realized today last year I got my first BFP.  And I miscarried on the 13th, it was Friday the 13th.  I hate that you're going through this.  It sucks so bad.
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  • rjl07rjl07
    I'm so sorry.  I hope you get some good news at the RE tomorrow.  Hang in there.  We're here for you.
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  • jdeats71jdeats71
    I'm so sorry......
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  • pepomntpatpepomntpat member
    I am so sorry.  {{hugs}}
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  • denise_mdenise_m
    I am so sorry :(
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  • someflower6someflower6 member

    i hope it's only for a short time. *hug*

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  • JayandTay09JayandTay09
    Oh hun....I am so so sorry.... :::::HUGS:::::
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  • Erin RNErin RN
    I'm so sorry Allison:( My anniversary of the first was this past Dec, so I completely understand how you feel. I really hope you can get good news tomorrow at the RE and have a great plan to get you that baby in your arms. Its really not fair that you haven't gotten one yet. You are such an amazing person and have provided so much support here. It really hurts to see you going through this. I wish I could just give you a big hug right now.   
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  • candyliescandylies
    {{{HUGS}}}. I am so sorry. I really feel for you, I know my heart would be breaking if I had to take bcp again.
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