anyone still have it 3 months and beyond?

Re: anyone still have it 3 months and beyond?

• nilly5 member

  March 2010

  DS is 10 months, and I still struggle w/ this. I'm not on medication, but there are times that I just want to put him in his crib and sit outside & cry because I feel like I'm just not a good enough mother for him.

  I've basically been struggling w/ it by myself. I havent told my doctor, and I havent really told my family....reason being I think they would think I'm crazy or that I'm lying and I dont want to be on meds.

  It gets better, dont worry. It's really hard trying to deal w/ all the emotions that come w/ having a baby.

  Stay strong!

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• Smudges*Mom member

  March 2010

  just_peachy:

  For all those struggling as I am, keep your eyes and heart lifted to the sunshine for hope.

  ::raises hand:: 

  Me too.  You are not alone.

  Your statement above made me smile--thank you!  I can tell by that sentence alone that while PPD/PPA is a part of your life, you are fighting hard so that it is not controlling your life.  Fight the good fight!

  Maybe the med switch will be a good one.  I, too, have dealt with depression prior to my PPD/PA experience.  While Prozac did not help me feel better--it made me skinny!  (I may have felt like crap, but I looked fabulous!)  Anyway, hopefully you will get the relief that you know is just around the bend!

  My LO is almost 8 months old--and I find that I go through spells that are harder than others.  In addition to PPD/PPA, I also have adult ADD.  I find that I have to push myself to be active and to make a plan.  Being busy and occupied helps me feel good.  I find it hard to plan too far ahead though, with a baby.  You know what I mean?

  The anxiety aspect of this all is new to me.  I got really sick at delivery and that scared me more than I ever expected.  Between recovering from HELLP Syndrome (very severe pre-e) and then PPD/PPA, I don't remember much of my son's first 6 weeks.  I know that if my DH weren't deployed, our marriage would have suffered too.  To this day, I don't know how he mustered the strength to call me every day--knowing that I would be a miserable, sobbing mess while we "talked".  I know that we were both relieved when I started to feel better and could make it through a phone call without any tears. (FWIW--my parents live close-by and took great care of LO and me during those first few months.)

  Remember that you are not alone.  You have your DH, friends, internet friends and your faith to see you through this time.  Take comfort in knowing that even on the days that you don't feel good, you are taking care of yourself and doing the right things.   

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• just_peachy

  March 2010

  Smudges, bless you for such supportive words.

  I too have ADD, OCD and Aspbergers so it's a big blur to me with so many things.  I feel it's a miracle I am even able to have a family but God blessed me with that and I owe it to them to be good to myself and fight this battle.

  We are in this together.....you have my t&p for brighter days!

  xoxo
  

  God Bless our sweet baby James. Our son, born 11/22/09. Unplanned, Emergency C-section
  "Wearing his BING CROSBY clothes and crooning...buuuh buuh buuuh"

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• kittylove member

  March 2010

  :::here:::

  My ppd went away at 10months but I still suffer with the ppa.
  

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