This week has been a Bad Week at work. One of the worst ever for me actually. I am a hospice volunteer director and I won't bore you with the details-- let me just sum it up that I had an 8:00 meeting this morning where I needed to tell our social work team that they were going to need to help me do volunteer assessments. (This is actually company policy and what they should've been doing all along.) Our staff is all overworked, and we have a very outspoken social work team so I knew this was going to be a difficult conversation.
Right before I am going to give my presentation, one of our social workers announced that she's pregnant and due 3 days after I was due. Honestly, the rest of the meeting is a blur and I have no idea what I said. I got lucky that my boss came along to back me up and ended up doing a lot of talking because all I heard was a buzzing in my ears and I have no idea what I even said.
I practically ran back to my office, shut the door and burst into tears, and I have a volunteer coming in 20 minutes for an interview so I have to get it together.
I know a lot of you are going through something similar with people with due dates around yours, but I'd love it if you could spare a thought or two for me this afternoon. I am a mess and no one here knows I was even pregnant so I am really going to have to get it together and my heart is just broken that I have to watch one of my coworkers have the pregnancy I should've had.
This is so not fair, for all of us.
Thanks, ladies. I am so glad that you are all here to listen.
Re: FML! No, seriously, FML.
BFP #2 4/13/10. Bridget born 12/28/10
BFP #3 Finn born 8/11/15
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Be kinder than necessary, for everyone you meet is fighting some kind of battle!
April 2011 CP @ 5 weeks
Thanks everyone. You guys are so sweet.
I was doing all right with everything until today. I think I am probably a pretty strong person (although I also think that people are stronger than they think they are) but this is just too much.
KristysRedBarn- I am so glad to hear that hospice has been a blessing to your family!
Harper Oksana, born on her due date, January 20, 2011, and the love of my life
diagnosed with heterozygous Factor V Leiden 2008; m/c 11/09 @ 5 1/2 wks; m/c 5/10 @ 4 1/2 wks; RLP testing done, diagnosed with antiphospholipid syn. and low progesterone; 7/10 started on Heparin injections & progesterone supps @ 3 dpo, BFP 8/9/10!!!
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Oh my. That is quite a way to top off your week. I am so sorry. We are all here for you hon. I hope your day gets better.
(((hugs)))
BFP 12/18/2009. HB 1/4/2010. NO HB 1/18/2010. D&C 1/19/2010
April 2011 IUI #1 BFN. High FSH and other issues.
May 2011 Chose to build our family through adoption
September 2011 Actively waiting for a match
11/26/11 Surprise BFP * DD born 7/23/12
Oh I am so sorry! There is no justice. For all of us. None of you wonderful women deserve this either.
*sigh*
Harper Oksana, born on her due date, January 20, 2011, and the love of my life
Oh honey I am so sorry you are dealing with this... I know how hard it can be to deal... I know someone that I have to see on a regular basis that has babies around all three of my edd's.. Its so difficult to watch their babies and bellies grow. I found that avoidance worked for awhile. And now I just have to learn how to deal with it..
When I had to watch a baby be christened that was born on my Grace's edd it just brought me to tears. I just have to remind myself that their baby isnt my baby. But its really hard to see what she should be doing at the milestones..
I wish I had a magic cure for you or knew how to make the pain away but I havent figured out how to do that myself yet... Big huge {{hugs}} to you today...
Jenn
IVF#1 BFN IVF#2 BFP, loss at 19 weeks FET#1 BFN IVF#3 BFP, m/c FET#2 BFN
Missing our twins Zachary and Madison, lost at 19 weeks on 11/13/09, edd 4/9/10
BFP 7/17/10, m/c 7/25/10, edd 3/25/11
Ectopic, lost left tube 4/20/11, edd 12/6/11
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