TTC After a Loss

FML! No, seriously, FML.

This week has been a Bad Week at work. One of the worst ever for me actually. I am a hospice volunteer director and I won't bore you with the details-- let me just sum it up that I had an 8:00 meeting this morning where I needed to tell our social work team that they were going to need to help me do volunteer assessments. (This is actually company policy and what they should've been doing all along.) Our staff is all overworked, and we have a very outspoken social work team so I knew this was going to be a difficult conversation.

Right before I am going to give my presentation, one of our social workers announced that she's pregnant and due 3 days after I was due. Honestly, the rest of the meeting is a blur and I have no idea what I said. I got lucky that my boss came along to back me up and ended up doing a lot of talking because all I heard was a buzzing in my ears and I have no idea what I even said.

I practically ran back to my office, shut the door and burst into tears, and I have a volunteer coming in 20 minutes for an interview so I have to get it together.

I know a lot of you are going through something similar with people with due dates around yours, but I'd love it if you could spare a thought or two for me this afternoon. I am a mess and no one here knows I was even pregnant so I am really going to have to get it together and my heart is just broken that I have to watch one of my coworkers have the pregnancy I should've had. 

This is so not fair, for all of us. Crying

Thanks, ladies. I am so glad that you are all here to listen.

BFP 1/8/10, missed mc 2/15/10, baby @8w3d. Natural mc 2/23/10 Goodbye our sweet little peanut. We love you so. Every lament is a love song...
Harper Oksana, born on her due date, January 20, 2011, and the love of my life
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  • I'm sorry you're having such a crappy day.
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  • I am so sorry you had to go through that. Why she felt the need to announce then - bah humbug! Sending you hugs and strength to get through the rest of the day. I think I see wumping in your future for tonight... Dr. Bump orders... [[hugs]]
  • Hugs.  I am so sorry.  FWIW I think your super strong to be able to work with Hosipice.  Hospice was such a huge blessing for my family a couple of times already.  I don't think I'm strong enough to work there.
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  • I'm so sorry.  ((hugs))
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    Thanks everyone. You guys are so sweet.

    I was doing all right with everything until today. I think I am probably a pretty strong person (although I also think that people are stronger than they think they are) but this is just too much.

    KristysRedBarn- I am so glad to hear that hospice has been a blessing to your family!

    BFP 1/8/10, missed mc 2/15/10, baby @8w3d. Natural mc 2/23/10 Goodbye our sweet little peanut. We love you so. Every lament is a love song...
    Harper Oksana, born on her due date, January 20, 2011, and the love of my life
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  • (((((HUGS))))))  I'm so sorry!!! 
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  • I'm sorry hun.
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  • I'm so sorry you have to go through this!
  • Oh hun, I am so sorry. My dumb@zz 18 year old cousin who dropped out of HS at 15 and works at a gas station knocked up his GF and she is due 3 days after my EDD. They are both worthless potheads and it just kills me that his baby is going to be the first great grandchild, and that I am going to have to watch them go through a pregnancy and have a baby, while I sit here with empty arms. So I totally feel your pain. ((HUGS))
    DD1 01/09/11 DD2 10/31/12 #3 EDD 10/22/14--Stick baby stick! Always in my heart, 4 sweet angels 2/10, 10/11, 12/11 & 10/13
  • Big hugs.  Good luck this afternoon.
    BFP 4/23/09. D&E 7/17/09 16W5D. BFP #2 3/10/10. EDD 11/15/10 Babycakes was born 11/5/10! Baby Birthday Ticker Ticker
  • ((Hugs)) I'm so sorry. I'm starting to see annoucements pop up for people who are due right around when I would have been. (I would have been 13 weeks right now..) It sucks.
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  • Oh my.  That is quite a way to top off your week.  I am so sorry.  We are all here for you hon.  I hope your day gets better.

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  • I'm so sorry......that sucks!
  • I'm sorry. Sending you T&Ps. ((hugs))

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  • I'm so sorry you've had a bad week. :-( Big (hugs) I know how hard it is.
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    Oh hun, I am so sorry. My dumb@zz 18 year old cousin who dropped out of HS at 15 and works at a gas station knocked up his GF and she is due 3 days after my EDD. They are both worthless potheads and it just kills me that his baby is going to be the first great grandchild, and that I am going to have to watch them go through a pregnancy and have a baby, while I sit here with empty arms. So I totally feel your pain. ((HUGS))

    Oh I am so sorry! There is no justice. For all of us. None of you wonderful women deserve this either. 

    *sigh*

    BFP 1/8/10, missed mc 2/15/10, baby @8w3d. Natural mc 2/23/10 Goodbye our sweet little peanut. We love you so. Every lament is a love song...
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  • I'm so sorry.  Sending thoughts and hugs your way.
    DD(9)DD(5.5)DS(3)DS(born 2/1/11) July 2006, lost a baby at 8 weeks, natural miscarriage , May 2009 lost Zoe Eliana at 17 weeks no reason known, possible under developed organs. Lost two more babies in September 2009 at 7 wks 4 days. Had myomectomy surgery to remove a large fibroid in November 2009.
  • I'm so sorry, hun.  :-(
  • Oh honey I am so sorry you are dealing with this... I know how hard it can be to deal...  I know someone that I have to see on  a regular basis that has babies around all three of my edd's..   Its so difficult to watch their babies and bellies grow.  I found that avoidance worked for awhile.  And now I just have to learn how to deal with it..

    When I had to watch a baby be christened that was born on my Grace's edd it just brought me to tears.  I just have to remind myself that their baby isnt my baby.  But its really hard to see what she should be doing at the milestones..

    I wish I had a magic cure for you or knew how to make the pain away but I havent figured out how to do that myself yet...   Big huge {{hugs}} to you today...

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  • Sending hugs.

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    BFP 7/17/10, m/c 7/25/10, edd 3/25/11

    Ectopic, lost left tube 4/20/11, edd 12/6/11

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  • I just read this now!!  (((HUGE HUGS))) your way... hope you are feeling a bit better!!!
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