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Couldn't decide if it was PPD or not. It is.

GinaM108GinaM108 member
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Over the past few weeks, I've given a lot of thought to whether I've got PPD or whether I've "just been having a rough couple of days."  Some days I feel completely fine, and then the irrational anger, frustration, and sadness hit me like a ton of  bricks.  A week ago I asked my lactation consultant about symptoms of PPD and she encouraged me to talk to my OB.

So I spoke with a different OB at my doctor's office (of course she's on vacation) and he was  very vague about treatment options and whether or not I might actually have PPD.  It was incredibly frustrating, and I left with a three-week sample of Lexapro, feeling even more conflicted than when I went in.

 I see my OB for a follow-up on Tuesday, and I have been trying to monitor my symptoms to determine whether this is something I really need to address.  The mood swings are very sudden and severe, brought on by the tiniest things.  It's frustrating to feel so suddenly out of control.

After struggling to keep a hold on my emotions this morning, I've come to the conclusion that this is indeed PPD, and I do need to take steps to treat it.  I'll be talking to my doctor on Tuesday about things I can do in addition to medication to treat my symptoms.  It's not fair to me or my family to avoid addressing the problem just because I can't commit to the PPD label.

 So.  I'm committing to it.  I have PPD.  I'm going to get help in dealing with it so that I can enjoy my son and work through the challenges of being a new mom. 

Thanks for reading and witnessing.

DS#1 12/11/09
TTC since May 2012
DS#2 5/16/13 stillborn after preterm labor and placental abruption at 23 wks
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Re: Couldn't decide if it was PPD or not. It is.

  • Smudges*MomSmudges*Mom member

    Good for you for taking care of yourself.  It is really unfortunate that there is negative reaction or feedback to dealing with PPD/PPA.  It is a real thing, life gets better much faster if addresssed properly and everyone is much happier.

    You are a strong woman and mama--PPD has nothing to do with that.  Be kind to yourself and take extra good care.

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  • jaime5121jaime5121
    I don't know why it is so hard to admit to ourselves that we have PPD, but I do know how difficult it is.  I, too, had a difficult time getting the Dr to listen to me.  Good for you to persist.  I finally had to put my foot down and throw a temper-tantrum to get treatment.  But, I'm really glad I did.  My life is so much better now.  GL!!!
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  • MandyAndMike24MandyAndMike24

    I suffered from PPD too.

    I just finished reading a book called "It Sucked and Then I Cried." It's about a mom suffering from PPD, but kind of light hearted. I enjoyed reading it. It's nice to read someone else's story and know that you're not alone when you aren't feeling "normal." 

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