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Left 1st monitoring appointment crying :(

I know I am probably overreacting some, and I know it is still early...

But after 2 days of stimming at 225iu of Follistim I had two follies (11 and 10mm). My AFC is 10 and FSH is 10.9, so I never thought I would be an amazing responder. But after hearing every doctor say that my age would help (28) and they weren't worried, etc., it was completely devastating.

The RE said, "It's still early so I can't say for sure, but we may only get 1-2 eggs this cycle." Um, seriously?! We're doing Mini-IVF so our goal was only 3-5 eggs, but 1-2?! He may just be preparing me for the worst...and hopefully we do get a couple more...but I could tell he was disappointed.

When I met with the nurse I asked her and she said we're on track and we didn't want a lot of eggs anyway. They are going to call me after my b/w to tell if/ how much to increase my meds, but with 2 follicles that big already - won't any others be too far behind to catch up? Maybe I'm wrong about that?

Has anybody else responded that quickly to meds but with a low number of follicles? Any words of encouragement? I cried the whole hour drive home. I know this sounds extreme, but I feel like I just lost 10 years of my fertility today. :( And who knows what will happen with this cycle. I am just praying and {unsuccessfully} trying to remain calm.

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Re: Left 1st monitoring appointment crying :(

  • After 2 days of stims, I was lucky to have one at 10mm. They really start to pop after about 5-6 days of stims. I am a poor responder and always got about 6 eggs.

    Try to hang in there - slow and steady wins this race.

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  • I'm so sorry. I don't have any advice, but I can offer ((hugs)).

    I know it's feels like things never go right when it comes to IF, but I think that your Dr. has your best interest at heart and would hope that he'd take good care of you.

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  • Hope you don't mind an SAIF post.  I honestly don't think you need to be upset yet.  Most RE's don't even start checking you until after 6 or so days of stims.  Even for my IVF cycle, I didn't go in for my first check until after 7 days.  It is waaaayy to early for them to know how many eggs you will have respond.  With an AFC of 10, I would imagine you will have several more.  Most follicles don't get over 10mm until after 4-5 days, and lots of women stim for 10-12 days total.  That's totally normal.  Hang in there and don't get too worried yet!
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  • Did they say if there were any smaller ones? I know they dont tell you if their under 10 but if I really pry sometimes they will tell me I have some 8's or a 7 or whatever. If you do have more can they put you on ganirelix to slow down the two you know about - to give smaller ones a chance to catch up? I agree that your age is way more important then your current fsh which isnt that bad. GL!!!

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  • I don't know what to say, maybe you have a follicle or two hiding out somewhere.  Try not to worry.  {{{hugs}}}
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  • imagesescms2004:
    I honestly don't think you need to be upset yet.  Most RE's don't even start checking you until after 6 or so days of stims.  Even for my IVF cycle, I didn't go in for my first check until after 7 days.  It is waaaayy to early for them to know how many eggs you will have respond.  With an AFC of 10, I would imagine you will have several more.  Most follicles don't get over 10mm until after 4-5 days, and lots of women stim for 10-12 days total.  That's totally normal.  Hang in there and don't get too worried yet!

    This excatly :) Hang in there sweetie.

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  • This whole process is so frustrating and your emotions are all over.  ((HUGS))

    I don't have any experience with mini-IVF but DMD1029 just did it and maybe you can page her and ask about her experience and when she had her follies show up on u/s.

    GL

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  • I don't have any advice for you, but try to hang in there, hon.  IF and IVF is such an emotional rollercoaster.  I've already had a freak out moment and haven't even started my meds yet.  (((Hugs)))
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    Did they say if there were any smaller ones? I know they dont tell you if their under 10 but if I really pry sometimes they will tell me I have some 8's or a 7 or whatever. If you do have more can they put you on ganirelix to slow down the two you know about - to give smaller ones a chance to catch up? I agree that your age is way more important then your current fsh which isnt that bad. GL!!!

    First of all, you ladies are seriously all so wonderful. Thank you for your responses, I appreciate it. I think it's making me cry more, but in that "I'm so emotional and really touched" sort of way.

    Ginger, I didn't hear about any smaller ones but I don't really know. I do have ganirelix so maybe that will be the plan? I have always been a fast responder/ early ovulater (I think you were too), which is why I think my RE had me come in right away after starting stims. But I guess I don't understand why he would say I might only get 1-2 eggs based on what everyone is saying.

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  • Big (((HUGS))), sweetie! Two days of stimming is still WAY early. I remember during my IVF cycle that I would leave the monitoring appointments on a cloud or down in the dumps... It is so easy to let one appointment impact our emotions and entire day. Stay positive... you still have much more time, and remember... quality over quantity!
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    I don't have any advice for you, but try to hang in there, hon.  IF and IVF is such an emotional rollercoaster.  I've already had a freak out moment and haven't even started my meds yet.  (((Hugs)))

    haha, seriously! I can't believe I'm already freaking out this much after 2 days. :( I'll be here for you when you're crying (although I am hoping everything just goes perfectly for you!!).

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  • I only had a couple at my first monitoring appt as well, about the same size as yours. I was freaking out too. When the nurse called, I did find out there were some smaller ones too. They increased my meds and I ended up with 6 eggs retrieved. Not great, but certainly better than the two at my first appt. Hang in there!
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  • I had 3-4 follicles after day 3 of stims (225 IU Follistim and 225 IU Menopur).

    They upped my dosage to 300 IU Folliston and 300 IU Menopur.

    By day 11, I only had 2 follicles.  I was devasted.  I am spending all of this money for what?  Women naturally have 1 follicle, and with all of the drugs I only get 2???  I did trigger that night.

    At ER, we got 4 follicles.  And all 4 fertilized.

    I am telling you all this as hard as it is, don't get discouraged.

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  • After 3 days of stims I only had a 12mm follie. I had a bad first monitoring appt today too and have been a mess all day. GL!
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  • I don't have any advice but wanted to wish you luck and send you ((hugs))! It sounds like it's just still early and you should be just fine.
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  • I'm a low responder too. I only had three follies at my first check. They ended up getting 6 mature eggs and I did get a BFP that cycle hon. It's hard not to give up hope, but just try to stay calm, you still have several days left to stim!
  • I'm sorry you had a rough appointment. ((hugs)) It does seem very early on, but I think I'd feel the same way as you. It's such a roller coaster! My first monitoring appt is tomorrow, after four days of stims.

    Good luck! I hope you get better news at your next appointment!

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  • It is such a roller coaster, but try and stay calm.  It is so early - after only a couple days of stims you can hardly tell anything yet!  Your RE probably WAS just trying to prep  you for worst-case scenario.  It is way to early to worry!

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    IVF #2 - Long Lupron w/ ICSI 6/10. 15 retrieved, 3DT of 2, BFFN!!
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  • It is such a roller coaster, but try and stay calm.  It is so early - after only a couple days of stims you can hardly tell anything yet!  Your RE probably WAS just trying to prep  you for worst-case scenario.  It is way to early to worry!  One day at a time ((hugs))

    TTC in 2008. Stage II/III endo, Hashimotos hypothyroid, low morph (3%).
    2 cycles Clomid/Ovidrel/TI/Crinone=BFN.
    IUI #1 - 4 Follistim/Ovidrel/IUI/Crinone = BFN.
    IVF #1 - Antagonist w/ ICSI 4/10. 17 retrieved, 5DT of 2, BFN :(
    IVF #2 - Long Lupron w/ ICSI 6/10. 15 retrieved, 3DT of 2, BFFN!!
    Lap 7/21/10
    IVF #3 - Clomid/Antagonist w/ ICSI 10/10. 14 retreived, 3DT of 3, BFP 10/20 but m/c. No HB 11/15/10 - D&C 11/17/10.
    FET - 2 blasts, 1 survived the thaw. Transfer 2/19. Beta #1 3/1 375, Beta #2 3/3 885, Beta #3 3/8 4261, Beta #4 3/11 9005. U/S 3/8 1 sac 1 yolk, U/S 3/16 1 heartbeat 114bpm!

     

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  • I am sorry you are sad and I don't have any insight as I haven't done these medications. I hope you have better luck at the next appointment. (((HUGS)))
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    I don't have any words of wisdom but just wanted to say I"m sorry you are upset about the monitoring appt ((hugs))
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  • It always took me about 10 days of stimming to show anything.  It was and still remains to be discouraging.  With this IVF I didn't have a single follie over 10 after 10 nights but after a few more days my ovaries exploded.  I had 32 eggs retrieved, 22 of them being mature.

    please just trust that your doctors are monitoring you well and that they have things under control.  if you don't trust them, then there's something wrong and maybe you should be looking for a new RE.

    but please don't be discouraged ::hugs::

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  • I'm sorry.  It's so stressful and you will likely get very different results at your next check, hopefully MUCH better news.  ((hugs))
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  • So sorry you had such a bad appointment!  Keeping fingers crossed that those follies start to grow!  I wouldn't count yourself out yet!  There is still plenty of time! 
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  • It is still super early, be patient with yourself. xxoo
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    I think after 3 days of stims I only had 1-2.  I ended up having a few more grow and we got 4 eggs at retrieval and I am now a success story.  Like PP said, slow and steady wins the race.  Sorry for the disappointment, I know how hard it is.  Try to hang in there though, hopefully things will pick up soon!  ((HUGS))

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