An excerpt from laylagrace.org (I can only read this blog in small doses because I get so emotional). It really hit home with me...
Layla now spends most of her days sleeping. 30-45 minutes after she wakes up, she is ready to lay down and sleep again. Is this God?s way of preparing me for all the quiet time that is coming soon? The house is quiet. I am able to go through the motions of laundry, dishes, cooking and picking up without interruptions. But I WANT interruptions. I WANT Layla to be under my feet asking for cookies. I WANT to hear her playing with her toys. I WANT to take 45 minutes to unload the dishwasher because she keeps trying to help. For every time I uttered the words ?I just can?t get anything done with these kids under my feet all day? I am eternally regretful. The days that I looked forward to naptime so I could get a grocery list made, or finally fold all the piles of laundry?I regret those days too. If I could do it all again, I?d enjoy EVERY SINGLE WAKING MOMENT I had with her. I would never wish for her to sit still or take a nap or go to bed early. I would never look forward to the days when she could sit through an entire episode of Dora silently. I would treasure every second with her.
Re: A reminder to cherish every second with LO
Ugh. I can't imagine. Seriously. What a horrible thing for anyone to have to go through.
And I love what she has written. After yesterday's rough afternoon (Bennett didn't nap at all and was a bear!) I needed a reminder.
;-(
I am VERY proud to say that when my kid asks me to play with her, or read her a book, etc. I stop what I'm doing and enjoy it with her. Not 100% of the time, but most every time. (I've always made it a point to do that, not just since reading about Layla. My parents always seemed so "busy" and dismissive, I don't want my kids to think of me like that.)
I was reading the blog yesterday for the 1st time and was crying at my desk. I just could not read it anymore. NB is just an awful disease. My brother's friend lost her 2 1/2 to NB over a year ago and her story was so sad. I followed her story closely and was heart broken for her and now as a Mom I can not even imagine. I have another friend of a friend whose 2 year old was also just diagnosed with NB. Her story is so heartbreaking because she was a 24 week premie born at 1 1/2lbs who beat the odds and was a thriving, healthy 2 year old till this.
Katie is my world and I can not even imagine what these parents are going through.
You know, come to think of it, I do too. But I've certainly been in the position of wanting to unload the dishwasher without "help," and looking forward to nap-time...
LO #1 - 1 unmedicated/self-monitored IUI w/ donor sperm.
LO #2 - 1 m/c, 2 BFNs, 4th IUI worked (unmedicated/self-monitored with new donor sperm).
Life is beautiful!
It is so incredibly difficult to read her blog and twitter feed. I do though. That family needs all the prayers and support that they can get. Poor Layla is just suffering, and I'm confused at this point what to pray for. I guess just peace for all of them.
I can't even fathom how difficult this must be for them. Life is precious and our LOs are all miracles.
I read this post too and as soon as I finished reading it I WOKE dd up from her nap just so I could hold her.
It is such a good reminder that what matters is right in front of you. The dishes, laundry, and bills will all be there tomorrow but you never know what life may bring.
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*Surprise BFP-T18 baby lost at 13w 1/10 *FET #1-DS born 2/11
I can't even begin to imagine. That blog just kills me. Her dad's post on Sunday was just too much. No words.
I do hug my boy a little tighter (if that's possible) after reading it...
Amber
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Exactly right - and Davez & Sea Soul...good for you for always stopping to play with/read with DC. I need to do the same.
My heart breaks for Layla and her family.
I am SO upset over this little girl. I couldn't even read your post. TRAGIC!
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Ditto. Very well said, LuckyH.
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