Postpartum Depression

Please reassure me (long)

That I really do need to go to my Dr's appt tomorrow.  Here's the back story:

For about the past two months or so I have been very depressed, crying nearly every day, feeling very guilty about having LO in daycare, not caring about work or anything but being at home with LO.  I have basically alienated myself.  I will become irrationally mad at my DH and my Mom for no good reason and stop speaking to them for the rest of the day.  It hasn't been this bad for the whole two months, but has become progressively worse over the last two months. 

I was at my PCP on Monday for a sinus/ear infection.  I finally got up the nerve to talk to her about how I was feeling.  She refused to talk to me about it.  She couldn't get me out of her office fast enough.  I was deflated.  I was devastated.  So hurt.  I finally admitted to myself that I needed help - that I didn't like how I was feeling and that enough was enough - I wanted my life back.  And my Dr goes and does this to me.  So, I throw myself a pitty party, and Tuesday I suck it up and call my OB. They tell me they don't consider it "Postpartum" because my son is too old.  They told me to call my PCP.  Are you kidding me????  I totally break down on the phone with the nurse and go through the whole thing on the phone with her about how the Dr wouldn't even talk to me about it.  She very reluctantly schedules me an appt for tomorrow with the midwife who delivered my son.  (thank god for small miracles!)

Well, ever since I have had the appt scheduled, I have felt much better. I don't know if it is that I have finally admitted that something is wrong and that I can see an end in sight (so to speak).  Or what it is.  I guess I just need someone to tell me that it is really in my best interest (or not) to go to my apptointment tomorrow and find out if this really is PPD.  I'm sorry that this is so long, but if you are still reading, thank you so much.  This board has really been a big help to me!  You ladies are wonderful!

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Re: Please reassure me (long)

  • that totally sucks! I would find a new PCP soon!! and I think your midwife will be very happy you came in.  Sometimes the front desk people can be stupid. And yes just knowing you are going to get help will be a great relief for awhile so please go to your appointment.
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    I was diagnosed when DS was 6 months old. PPD can hit anytime within the first year, or within a year of weaning from bfing.

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  • Yes, please go to you appt! I do think part of your relief is knowing that you are going to get help - but you have to go through with the second part, actually getting the help!

    Keep us posted!

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    Yes, please go to you appt! I do think part of your relief is knowing that you are going to get help - but you have to go through with the second part, actually getting the help!

    Keep us posted!

    This! 

    Tell your midwife how you have been feeling.  Don't sugarcoat it, tell her the good, the bad and the ugly. Remember how badly you have felt.  You want to get better and you can and will!  The midwife will help you!

    ETA:  I would tell the midwife that your understanding is that PPD can occur up to a year after delivery and yet when you called, the person answering the phone told you could not have PPD because it had been too long since delivery.  The person answering the phone needs to be corrected and trained on how to properly handle situations like this.

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  • I am glad you are seeking help. I am sorry people were not helpful. I hope that your midwife can help you.
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  • Definitely go!! What happens if the feelings come back and then you have to deal with that lady who didn't want to schedule you in the first place? Ugh then you'd have even more frustration. I feel it's better to be safe! You may even feel better after talking to her about how you feel. I cried to my nurse practitioner at my OB's office for almost an hour and then she got my Dr. in there to get me some meds prescribed. Please go, and let us know what happens!!

  • Im so sorry your dealing with that, its ridiculous how they treated you. In my personal experience and what Ive heard from friends with PPD I think even OB, psychotherapist ect get uncomfortable with PPD. I know they are trained and its what they specialize in but honestly, everyone I know who has seen someone for PPD has gotten the cold shoulder & had it brushed off. Please go to the appointment, it cant hurt at all to go right? Im sure you will feel much much better after the appointment wether you have PPD or not. If it turns out you dont have it you can feel comfortable that anything that happens from now onward is just moodiness or situational. If it is PPD you can get the help you need and start to feel better! Good luck hun, I hope you feel better soon. You are so brave for bringing it up to your OB AND following through after being brushed off. Good for you.
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