I don't feel "depressed", I don't feel incompetent over my parenting skills, I don't feel sad or upset, but I do have anxiety that I can't seem to shake. I am totally in love with my LO, but the idea of spending the next 6 weeks (the rest of my maternity leave) stuck with him in the house, doing nothing but feeding, changing and trying to get him to sleep with no sleep myself is sort of making me panic. My DH was home with us the first two weeks and my mom was with us last week and now I'm all on my own and feeling trapped, and worrying about how I'm going to do this for 6 more weeks! I'm sick of daytime TV, sick of the cold weather outside, and sort of miss working (even though I really hated where I worked - I think I miss being "me" and adult conversation, etc.). I feel like I could cry at the drop of a hat over nothing in particular, I just feel like the anxiety is always right under the surface, waiting for me to not be able to control it.
Is this anxiety going to pass? Is this the baby blues? Am I just being stupid and silly? I'm sorry for whining, this has just been on my mind the last week or so.
Re: Repost from 0-3 month board
I could have written this, I had/have such bad anxiety when left alone with my baby. And I agree, therapy is the best thing, has really made the difference. And I agree...again that getting out when you can really does help. DH and I have already talked about planning (if we can) our next baby better so it's not a winter baby and I am stuck in the house all the time.