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Relapse? Anyone?

franciscazfranciscaz member
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I am so frustrated right now.  I have been doing so much better with counseling and with my meds.  In fact I am supposed to be graduating from therapy and I wanted to start weaning.  But work suddenly got a lot harder and the kids are getting harder and I just am sprialing down again.  I'm emailing my counselor tonight... maybe I can see him earlier than our Thursday mtg.  I scared myself tonight just by how much I am falling apart.

Anyone else have sort of a PPD relapse? 

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  • *speedracer**speedracer* member

    i was just going to post to you because i noticed you were here!

    (hi)

    i'm in a slightly different spot than you, i finished up my treatment after PPD with #1 when he was about 1 year old.

    Now i'm pg again, and was starting to line up support and whatnot for when baby #2 comes in june.  We found out 3 weeks ago that he has a physical birth defect, and i think that is the catalyst that has set off a relapse.  I just sorta realized it's happening this weekend, and same thing, i scared myself with how fast it all came crashing down.  

    i know its beyond my control but i still feel a little disappointed that it's happening so early.  i feel really alone.

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  • franciscazfranciscaz member

    It is good seeing you.  Wish it was under better circumstances for both of us. 

    I hear you.  I feel pretty alone right now and I am so disappointed in myself (even though there was nothing I could do).  

    I am sorry for everything you are going through.  My pregnancy was pretty rough too (we almost lost the babies and they were premies) and after having fought PPD for #1 it just started in motion everything harder this time.  (((HUGS))) 

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  • Smudges*MomSmudges*Mom member

    I'm sorry that you are feeling like this again.  It sucks.  Knowing how good it feels to feel good/normal and then sliding back down.

    I guess the way that I look at it is that I will always be predisposed to depression.  My situation my be diffrerent as I dealt with depression long before I had PPD.  I don't feel like it will ever go away completely and that there will be more of an ebb and flow to it all.  That helps me.

    I think it is great that you are getting in touch with your therapist.  Nipping it early will help and doing something about it will likely help you feel like you have a bit more control over the situation.

    Best of luck.  I hope that this is a momentary set-back!

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  • riv08riv08

    Yes, I have relapsed before. I have an 18month old daughter and am still on medication for depression/anxiety. I recently realized that I will probably be on medication for the rest of my life. I had a period of time last month where I found out I was pregnant and had to immediately stop one of my medications. I was so anxious the entire week, I could barely function. I ended up miscarrying. I am still feeling down over this.

    I hope you are feeling better and are able to find peace. There is nothing wrong with adjusting your timeline on weaning your medication or going to therapy.  Just remember to take one day at a time. Ask for help when you need it, and remember to take time to take care of yourself

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