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Feeling lost...

peapod0110peapod0110
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I've been hesitating to post here since things are still new, but I am just feeling so lost.  I feel so drained and I feel like I can't do anything to console my son.  He screams during diaper changes, being swaddled and at least 3 or 4 hour long stretches during the day.  When this happens I just want to run away.  I try everything I can think of to calm him, but when it doesn't work I just feel like packing up and leaving.  I never would of course because I am madly in love with my husband, but I'm really scared by these feelings. Lately I have been feeling regretful....was I ready.

I'm thinking of calling my doctor, but I don't know if she'll talk to me this early?  For those of you who are taking medication, how does it make you feel?  Are those really low points not so bad anymore?  Do you find yourself still battling with the emotions you had before?

Thanks for listening... 

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Re: Feeling lost...

  • AZAudiGirlAZAudiGirl member
    Your doc will talk to you this early. I am on medication and things are better but I do still find myself pretty emotional. I had the same feeling of packing up and leaving. I actually just got up once during diner calmly walked out of the house and drove off. Never said a word to my husband. I drove to the lake and sat in the car for over 2 hours looking at pictures of LO on my phone and crying. I finally went home and DH just hugged me and told me he loved me and that I needed to talk to someone. I hope you start to feel better soon. The feeling you are having are not your fault. Having a baby is very emotional...you are not alone. Call your doc first thing in the morning. 
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  • *speedracer**speedracer* member
    i could have written this post 2 years ago.  even though we planned out DS i kept thinking the whole thing was such a mistake and felt like just giving him away to anyone who would take him, which i knew wasn't right, and it just made me feel worse.  I think your instincts are on to something and you should go ahead and talk to your doctor.  i'm not on medication anymore, but before i started it my nurse said it makes you feel like yourself, only better, which was true.  it took the edge off my anxiety, and allowed me to sleep better and actually enjoy being with my son. 
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  • DCnSFDCnSF
    I think I was in denial with my emotions after I had DD, but after talking to a lot of other Mommies, I realize that those feelings are normal. You are going on little sleep, hormones are raging, all these changes. It's HARD! Please talk to your doctor. Your baby might have colic which would explain the hours of crying. Talk to your peditrician as well. They can really help you and they understand what you are going through. You're not alone girlie!! 
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  • ss1971ss1971
    Your doctor will absolutely talk to you this early. I was on the phone with my doctor when my baby was 8 days old. I was thrilled to be a mom, but I literally couldn't stop crying. I would feel great in the morning, but around 4:00 I would start to get really anxious about the nighttime feedings/sleeping etc. They referred me to a counselor and I was prescribed zoloft, and it simply "took the edge off". I had put off calling the doctor for a few days, but my husband said not only would it make me feel better, but it would help me be a better mom. I wasn't helping my baby by sitting there crying! Good luck, and know you are not alone! 
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