Today is day 16 of our NICU stay and each day gets more difficult. The past two weeks I have been really physically unwell (needed blood transfusion after c-section) I've been focusing on making myself better so that I can care for these two when they get home.
Now that I am feeling much better physically it is hitting me harder every time we leave the NICU -we are leaving but they are not coming home with us. I just feel like they took my babies out of my body and won't give them back to me. I go home and feel empty and can't stop crying. This just freaking sucks. DH gets it, but just doesn't feel the same way.
I guess I just need to know that this is normal. No one seems to understand, they just say how lucky I am to be able to heal and get rest before they come home. Lucky my a*s*s.