Infertility

Come Join My Pity Party

I'm still reeling from the news from the embryologist this morning (f/u fert report basically said that embryos weren't progressing and that transfer tomorrow would likely be cancelled).  DH and I talked about options this morning, and we seemed to agree that sperm donor was our preferred next step (assuming that IVF w/ ICSI round 2 wouldn't make sense). Then, we spent the rest of the afternoon avoiding the topic and instead with to a dog show... nice distraction for the day. 

When we got home, my dad called to see how the whole process was going.  The tears just came flooding out.  I'm mad that it isn't working. I'm mad that DH's morphology is 0%. I'm mad that research scientists haven't found a way to fix male infertility. I'm mad that my mom is too far gone with alzheimer's to be able to talk to me about this.  I'm mad that even though my ET will likely be cancelled tomorrow, I still had to give myself a PIO shot in the a$$ just in case... sigh...

Thank you to all of you for your messages of support... especially to those who gave me guidance on donor sperm (you know who you are!!).

DH and I talked a bit more tonight about it.  We have decided to talk to his urologist and his other doctor (DH has a long-term condition that requires daily medication. Medication isn't known to have any side effects on male fertility, but doctor said that we can go off the medication for three months to see if there is an improvement).

I'm guessing that we wouldn't be able to start another round of IVF for at least two months in order to give my body time to cycle and heal, so we'll use that time to research donor sperm programs and process and seeing if his SA results improve.  If his morphology improves, we'll go for the IVF w ICSI again. If it doesn't, we'll be searching through profiles of handsome, educated men of spanish descent with dark hair and dark eyes. Thanks for listening. 

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Re: Come Join My Pity Party

  • I am so sorry you are dealing with all of this.  IF sucks.  And, I hate that your mom can't be there for you right now.

    I'm thinking about you.

    (((HUGS)))

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  • *HUGZ*  I'm so sorry you have to deal with all of that.  I can't imagine what this journey would be like without my mom.  *HUGZ*

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  • I am so sorry that you are going through all of this.  Feel free to vent away and we are all here for you

    ((hugs))

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  • I'm so sorry that you're having to deal with this.  It's not fair.  MFI sucks.  Sending you big hugs and keeping you in my thoughts right now.
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  • I'm sorry that you're going through this, and that your mom can't help you right now.  I am glad that you can talk to your father.

    Many hugs your way. 

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  • so so so sooooooo sorry you're going through all this mess. :( sending huge hugs and love.
  • I am so sorry that you are going through this. I hope that your husband's Drs can give you some guidance.
  • I'm so sorry you are going through such a rough time right now.  Life is just not fair... I hope that your DH's morph improves and you're able to cycle again using ICSI.  If not, good luck with finding donor sperm.  I hope you get your BFP very soon!
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  • I am so sorry ((HUGS))
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  • This whole thing sucks and I'm sorry you're having to deal with it all.

    I'm still hoping you get some good news tomorrow ((hugs))

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  • I am so sorry for what you are going through.  It must be so difficult for you and I think you are a very strong woman.  I hope you get some good news from the doctors over the next few months and if donor sperm is the option, I wish you the best with that!
  • I'm so sorry!  Sometimes everything just piles on at once and it hits you like a semi.  My mom didn't have to go through all this, but I'm glad I can still talk to her about all this.  I'm sorry you can't do the same with your mom.  The good news is, you have us and we're right here with you.  Here's hoping tomorrow will be a better day for you!
  • I'm so sorry you're going through this, hun.  ((( BIG HUGS )))
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  • I'm so sorry you're dealing with this.  You can vent here anytime you want to - we actually want to listen.  Please stay positive and do give up.  We all have to believe, sweetie!
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  • So many (((HUGE HUGS))) to you!
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