Am I?

ABCmom!!! · January 2010

Ok, so even though I am extremely exhausted I can't sleep at all. I try to and my mind is always racing.I love LO but in a way I feel as though he is not mine. Thats what bothers me the most, I don't feel like he's mine.... is any of this depression or am I just weird?

Smudges*Mom · January 2010

I am so sorry that you are feeling like this. It is an awful feeling.

From my perspective, it sounds like you are dealing with postpartum anxiety. I felt like that when my son was younger too. I loved him because I knew I was supposed to, but I didn't feel much of a connection to him. Just thinking of it makes my stomach hurt.

Please call your OB and let them know that you are feeling like this. Don't sugar-coat it, tell them that you aren't sleeping because of these anxious thoughts. They can help you.

I am taking Pristiq and it has done wonders for me. I am able to sleep. I look forward to getting up in the morning to see my son. You won't always feel like this. And, if you get help, you'll feel better sooner.

Take care!

pam1005 · January 2010

Ditto pp. I was the same way. Although I was exhausted, I could not sleep no matter what I did. I tried tylenol pm, decaf tea before bed, and a hot bath. I was always so worried about when he would wake up, if I would get any sleep, if it would be a long night, etc. I knew I loved him, but I didn't really feel a strong connection. I called my nurses line at my ob's office and she immediately put me on celaxa (citalopram). After about a week I felt like I was a new person. I was sleeping better and enjoying my life so much more. Good luck! Call your doctor's office as soon as you can.

texmommy3 · January 2010

Me too. Call while you are still semi okay. I didn't sleep for a week or so, and ended up on some strong meds for a little bit, but Lunesta worked also.