I have 5.5 wks of maternity leave left but it breaks my heart to have to think about going back to work. I just keep thinking of how i will miss things she does during the day and not get to hold her when she needs to eat or be consoled 
 All of those things go through my head.....I keep praying things would pick up with my hubby's business and he even said something about how he wanted me home with DD because he felt this time was critical for me to be with her. It's just that we wouldn't be able to swing it financially unless things did pick up for him. I love my job though...it's just that being a mom is the most important job of all. Just needed to vent a little.....thanks ladies. 
Re: I can't bear to think about going back to work.....
I keep telling myself to enjoy this time and I am. About the 12 wks....technically I could but I work for an accounting firm and have to go back earlier due to tax season...I will more than likely cut back to 4 days a week after tax season is over. It's just so stinkin hard....they pay for my insurance. They have been so good to me too. Hopefully things will work out how they are supposed to.