If you don't know my back story here's a slightly condenced version: In September of last year I was diagnosed with a disease called Adenomyosis which is related to Endometriosis (check my blog for more details on the condition). I was told the day after my 23rd birthday that I would need to have a hysterectomy. DH and I chose to TTC another but only were going to wait until December 09 because of the ammount of pain the Adeno puts me in. Thankfully, we didn't have long to wait and found out we were pregnant the beginning of October. I always say that it was God's will because the ONLY time we had sex was the night of my birthday when I was drunk enough to not feel the pain (sex is very painful when you have Adeno). Meaning I got pregnant the night before I was told I would probably never have any more children.
I've
had problems with fertility since I was 15 and always knew that I'd
have trouble carrying a child to term. I got pregnant from a rape and
delivered a stillborn the end of January 2002 at around 14-16 weeks
gestation. It was a girl that I named Lillianne. I feel that Lillianne
has haunted me these past 8 years. I grieved tremendously over the loss
of my first baby girl even though having her would have completely
ruined my life at the time. My second pregnancy was high risk
with preterm labor starting at 22 weeks and ruptured membranes at 34
weeks along. My next 3 pregnancies ended in first trimester
miscarriages between March and August of 2008. When we found out in
September that I had Adenomyosis I was relieved to find what the cause
of my miscarriages had been but knew getting pregnant was going to be
very hard. However God has blessed us.
And now, today we have confirmed that we do, indeed, have a
healthy baby GIRL on the way. I feel God has sent me my Lillianne back.
I was moved to tears at the ultra sound at the sight of my healthy
child. God has choosen to bless me and I praise Him for giving me the
strength to hope and love another child again.
If you got through all of that thank you for listening to me
Re: Big U/S today! *long explaination*