(keep in mind I'm basically wasted)
I'm starting to get anxiety as midnight gets closer. It's just that about one short month ago, I never would've imagined that I'd spend my NYE on TTCAL. I thought I'd be ringing in the BEST YEAR OF MY LIFE. We were going to have a baby in 2010.
Ok I'm done.
Re: ok...my sad post of the night....
i know sweets. I'm supposed to have an almost one year old in my arms right now. instead DH and I talked about SA, IUI and adoption packets over dinner. seriously. the tears just won't stop flowing . ..
and I tried to get drunk and didn't succeed.
::Big hugs::: Me & my drunken self were a sobbing mess at midnight last night. It's like all the pent up emotion that I haven't shown IRL came barrelling out last night. It felt good & I think it was a big wake up call to my DH that I am not as strong as I normally appear. I still believe we will get our 2010 babies