DH is working a large NYE party and I cannot be with him because I am home with DS. This is the first time in over 14 years that DH and I will not usher in the new year together. It has never matter what we were doing, just as long as we were together. I wish he was home with us tonight.
I know that life changes, but right now I am really down and a little resentful. Wish my meds were working better. Doc just upped the dosage yesterday.
Oh well. Just had to share my feelings with someone and I am too embarrassed to tell anyone else. My DH knows, but I can't talk with him about it now since he's working.
Married to the Love of My Life since September 14, 2002.
Me: 39 DH: 36
BFP#1: 10/20/08, EDD: 6/29/09
PIH, bedrest for 4 wks, delivered at 39 weeks by induction and then c-section- Healthy baby boy on 6/24/09 :-)
BFP#2: 11/24/11, EDD: 8/4/12, Angel Baby- 2/19/12
Enlarged bladder seen on U/S at 12 weeks (1/15/12), possibly LUTO or Prune Belly, Heartbeat at OB on 2/17/12,
No heartbeat/movement at U/S on 2/20/12, (missed MC), D&E:2/22/12. Miscarried our sweet angel boy @ 16 wks
TTCAL since June 2012,
Progesterone normal, FSH elevated & AMH on the low side-- "ovaries acting older"
Clomid cycles: 50 mg in February, July, August, September, November 2013, June 2014-- BFNs!! :-(
August & September 2014: Clomid, HCG and IUI-- BFNs
September 2014: FSH= 15.7 AMH= 0.25 UGH!!! Old lady Ovaries!!!
October & November 2014: Gonadatropin injections, HCG & IUI... BFNs!!
We have been blessed with a sweet little boy.
Hoping to be able to give him a sibling someday.