Rough Day Today...
Earlier this afternoon my Mom's cell phone stated blowing up with phone calls from her cousins. My Great-Aunt was very sick and in the hospital. They were calling to say that tomorrow (today now) she was being transferred to a special home in the cities and they warned my Mom that this was "the end".
We immediately hopped in the car and brought my Grandma to the hospital to see her.
Because of my issues I had to leave the hospital part and go back down to the cafeteria while they visited (plus she was in partial isolation and I've been suffering from allergies and decided a shaking girl who keeps sneezing doesn't look good). But Grandma's sister hasn't been told her time is limited and we couldn't bring ourselves to telling Grandma this is the last time she's probably going to see her. It was extremely sad. I just kept thinking of the day this may happen with my brother. And that along with the minor panic attack I was having made me the most pathetic person in the cafeteria. Luckily it's a hospital... they seemed used to seeing people cry.
But we got home and just didn't know what to say and went on with our evening as we usually would. But I can't help but wonder if my Grandma knows and how she's dealing with it, really. She looks fine on the outside, but who knows what's going on inside. I know old age is natural, we all eventually die and dying of "natural" causes as an elderly person is an ideal way to go, but the end is still hard no matter how old you are.
Re: Rough Day Today...
adding more hugs for you here.
It's so hard to know that you are possibly saying goodbye, and having to deal with keeping information like this. we had to do this with my grandma when my aunt was at the last stages of cancer. It's so very hard to deal with.
I'm here if you need to talk.
נשמה שבאה לעולם למספר חודשים לשהות במעי האם, היא נשמת צדיק גמור שבאה לעולם רק לתקן פגם קטן ולאחר מספר חודשים אלו היא שבה למקומה לגן עדן להתענג על ה'. לעתיד לבוא נשמה זו תוכר באחד מבנייך ובזכות נשמת צדיק זה תזכי להיות במחיצת צדיקים
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