Lately I've just been feeling so sad. I don't really know why, not sad about anything in particular, but most of the time when I can find a reason for my sadness it's that I miss the freedom I had before the baby came. It makes me so guilty to feel that way.
I don't know if it's the baby blues coming back (does that even happen? I thought I was rid of those!) or the holidays, or maybe I do have PPD (I'm at a higher risk because I have a history of depression...I've been on anti-depressants for a little over a year now.)
I don't really know what I'm looking for here, I guess I just needed to get these thoughts off my chest, because when I try to talk to my DH about it, he just brushes it off, even though he knows about my depression and has heard the doctor talk about how serious it is and how I need to be looking out for it just in case because I'm high risk.