feeling torn apart....

Shahlala · December 2009

i knew i was a high risk for PPD because ive had a history of depression, so much *** has happened to me over the past year and i have emotions that sky rocket in an instant.....

and i really think i have it. I cry all the time....I'm hurting...me and the BF are fighting constantly....i think Rylens colicky and or teething so hes always cranky and its just stressful. i would NEVER EVER EVER!!!! even consider hurting either of us..... i just need to get out of this black hole im sinking in.

i dont know why i just cant ever be happy? nothing seems to help me nemore.

(sorry bout the IM typing...)

TommysGirl56 · December 2009

I have experienced much of what you are describing. I know it helps just to know you aren't alone in feeling this way. And it is not your fault! Please go see your doctor about these emotions. I have just started treatment myself, and I am slowly feeling the pain and anxiety ease up. Good luck to you, and please keep us updated on how you are doing!

Shahlala · December 2009

thanks.

i will as soon as i have insurance again....

farrellashleigh · December 2009

there are options for those that dont have insurance, check back in the posts here, i think there was some good info. But dont wait! At least call your doc and tell them whats going on, I didnt even need an appt to get a Rx called in for Zoloft, I just spoke with the nurse practioner.

Youre not alone here!

sam19 · December 2009

I'm sorry you are having to deal with this. It's so difficult with a colicky baby and PPD. Just know that you are not alone and if you ever want to talk or vent then you can always come here. Also, see if a Dr will call in a prescription for you. I think some generic forms are on the $4 list at wal mart.