TTC after 35

Beta came back negative :(

I'm so heartbroken right now. Sometimes I wonder if I should just give up before this ruins me. I'll heal for a few days and then have the WTF talk with my RE. Boo IF!
TTC since 3/08 DOR, High FSH, Hypothyroid, Uterine Polyps, blocked tube, MFI, 5 rounds of clomid, 5 IVF attempts, 2 hysteroscopies, 2 natural conceptions=2 losses (Methotrexate, D&C) Successful DE cycle twins born 10/7/11 Baby Birthday Ticker Ticker

Re: Beta came back negative :(

  • I am so sorry.  Sad
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  • I am so very sorry...sending you very big hugs!
  • Oh, I am so sorry and this is so unfair....wish I could say something to make this better, but it just sucks. Take care of yourself and hang in there.
    1 ectopic 3 m/c's prior to 5/05 Un-freaking-explained IF 5/05 IVF, BFN 9/05 FET 3d5e, BFP = Beautiful Baby Girl (lucky pg #5) 8/08 Fet 3d5e, cp 12/08 IVF with PGD, transfer 3, BFN 5/09 FET transfer 4, BFN Hail Mary IUI with Follistim 9/11 BFP; 9/22 confirmed tubal/MTX 4/10 FET 3d5e, BFP!!!! m/c 5/26/10 1 year break and yet another m/c 5/11 FET #5 initial beat 121, second beta 7 Lap and removal of L tube and very mild endo 7/11 Suprise BFP 12/11 & m/c @ 8 wks. After 11 losses and one beautiful miracle our journey is over, we are thankful and at peace.
  • Oh no, I'm so sorry. I hope you take the time you need and get some answers from your doctor.
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  • No!!!!  I hate this.  There's no way around it.  It sucks.  I'm sorry QE2.  : (
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  • I'm so sorry. 
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  • I am so very sorry. ((hugs))
  • I'm so sorry QE2. Give yourself some time to deal with the loss, but don't give up. Sometimes it is just about perseverence. ((((hugs))))

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  • I am so so sorry!  You will be in my thoughts.
  • I'm sorry to hear this.  I hope your RE has some good ideas for you!
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  • I'm so sorry.
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  • I am so so so sorry. IF sucks big time. I am heartbroken for both of us. But we have to stay positive. I have my WTF appointment next week. Ugggg. Af is still here and beta on Thursday. And I still have to keep using those progesterone suppositories.. Gross. I am here for you. Sending you big hugs.
  • I'm sorry QE2. It does suck.

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    Hang in there.

  • I am so sorry.  I was really hoping for the best for you!  We can't let IF get the best of us!
  • I am so very sorry. Left Hug
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  • I'm so sorry QE2!  {{{{{Hugs}}}}}
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  • I'm so sorry Q....IF really does suck!  I'm keeping you in my thoughts.

    big (((hugs))) 

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  • so unfair!! I am really sorry Sad
  • That just stinks....I'm sorry to hear this.  ((Hugs))
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  • I am truly so sorry
  • I'm so sorry to hear that! It truly does suck. I think we're often at our lowest of lows when AF shows her ugly face or we see an BFN. It tears me up every month, too. I wish none of us had to go through these kinds of ordeals in order to become parents. ::hugs::
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  • So sorry Left HugRight Hug
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  • Oh, no!  I was just coming on to look for your post.  I am so sad for you.  This is such an emotional and physical roller coaster.  We do everything we're supposed to....WHY doesn't it work??  I just don't understand.  Sending you lots of hugs...wish I could make it better. 
     
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  • Ugh.  So sorry, QE.
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  • I am really sorry.  I wish this was easier for all of us. 
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  • Oh QE2, I am so sorry. 
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  • I'm so sorry, it's just not fair.  I wish everything wasn't such a gamble.  You would think by now science would have figured out a way to make it 100% effective.
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  • I'm so sorry. My heart goes out to you. I'm not sure why these things happen. It's just so unfair.
  • Oh crap...IF truly svcks!

    Hope the WTF appt. gives you some answers and ideas.

  • Angry  sorry girlfriend. 
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  • QE2-  I am so sorry.  It is so unfair and it just sucks.  I wish I could say something to make this better.  You have a lot of friends here and vent any time you need to!
    3 IUI's and 2 IVF's later- Brady arrived. Born at 36 weeks after PUPPS and pre-e/HELLP.
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