One year ago, I joined this board, something no one wants to do. We had a missed m/c that was discovered at 11w3d - our appointment where we had hoped to hear the heatbeat. We were devastated and shocked. We had a 2 year old dd, who was healthy and had an uneventful pregnancy with her. One year ago, I sat in my living room crying with my dh, while we waited for our evening appointment for a D&C. It was a horrible day of making phone calls to tell our families. My D&C was uneventful and it was all over. I felt so empty and sad.
We experienced a 2nd loss in April of this year after 9w5d. Again, we were sad and devastated. We had the chromosomal testing done, and came back that the baby had abnormalities that made her incompatible with life. But that there wasn't an indication that we'd have another m/c. We decided to stop trying and just give our minds a break!
We had a busy summer planned, including a trip to Las Vegas. We went to Vegas, had a great time! When we came back, we realized that I hadn't had my period. I finally took a test, and BFP!! I was excited, but cautious. I didn't want to get too invested.
Well, here I am a year after my first m/c, and I'm 28 weeks along with a healthy baby boy! As difficult as the last year has been, I must say that I'm thankful for the experience. If I had not gone through the two losses, the son that we are expecting would not have been a part of our family. It would be an entirely different child (whom I'm sure we'd have loved). But knowing that at the right time we would get pregnant again, and the right child would join our family, really helped me during the process. So, here I am today, one year after the worst day of my life, and I'm sad for my loss, but also very thankful. It has taught me a lot! I'm so grateful for this pregnancy and this child.
I'm sorry that each of you are a part of this board and that you've also experienced a loss. This is not a club that any woman wants to be a part of. I remembered hearing success stories when I was here, and I appreciated them, so I thought I'd share with you as well. Good luck to you all!
Re: 1 year ago today I was here (ticker warning)
Missed m/c 11.09 | Missed m/c 3.10 | We miss you & love you so.
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Formerly toddandjulie
Mom to Teagan 4.11.07 and Cora 9.30.11
D&E @ 22w 9.30.09 CMV infection BFP 10.15.10 C/P 4w4d