f/u- 3rd beta results and U/S....

MauidAims · November 2009

After waiting all weekend and watching the hours click by on the clock yesterday, I got a call at 5:10pm to tell me 3rd beta results. They were 759. Not doubling but slowly climbing (1st was 580, 2nd 653). They scheduled me for an u/s this morning. We saw the sac and baby in the uterus. I personally didn't see a heartbeat (by the colors) and the tech couldn't tell me anything. She just kept asking me how far along I thought I was. Which meant to me that the sac measured small. I will not know for sure what is going on until the report later this afternoon. Right now, the waiting, not knowing is becoming worse than the possible results, its a rollercoaster. First they told me I m/c, then I didn't, then it might still be okay. This has been torture! I am putting faith and trust in my body that it has/is doing the right thing. I assume the Dr will not do anything until my numbers drop??

I really find you ladies SO SO helpful with every single one of your stories. Some nesties touch my heart, but you ladies stamp mine. Every single one of you is so strong and brave. I am an information whOre and I feel so much better reading your posts. It makes me feel more informed and blessed to have this board. So thank you!

Also, as of now, I do not think we will be going on our Hawaiian vacation in 2 weeks. Simply because Hawaii is my paradise. I dont really want to go there (especially Maui because we were married there) and be mourning and unhappy. I want to keep it as my paradise and would rather experience it again at a happy time. Also, although this has been so tough on us, being around friends and family at this time is exactly what I need (even if it is the holidays).

pepomntpat · November 2009

I am sorry you are going through all of this. {{hugs}}

carrottopshaw · November 2009

I am so sorry that you are going through this. I went through almost the exact same thing...betas were slowly climbing, ultrasound measured a week behind where I knew I was. I was told I could schedule d/c or wait to m/c naturally. I decided to wait. Numbers were stilll climbing, so I was told maybe it would be viable (or ectopic) then 2 weeks later I started to bleed and miscarried. It is a roller coaster of emotions and you are so right about the waiting and not knowing being the worst part. I spent way too much time on the misdiagnosed miscarriage site and went through every possible scenario of how it could all work out. So hard.

Hugs to you! And you are also right that being around family and friends helps a lot!