i may actually be ovulating (didn't take an opk or have u/s just based on other symptoms tmi) and for some reason i'm not very excited...normally I'd be jumping off the roof because i rarely ovulate.
maybe i'm scared - maybe i'm not ready. i don't know. i feel hormonal and
b!tchy today for some reason. boo.
i feel guilty for even posting this. i don't know what is wrong with me.
Re: maybe I'm not ready for #2
"Just keep swimming, just keep swimming..."
Every single insecurity surfaces with the prospect of success for me. Its so different for me this time around - last time I just wanted the CHANCE TO BE A MOM and now I know what being a mom is like and that adds a whole new layer to the stress, excitement, anxiety, worry, fear, joy....
Just my 2 cents.
m/c 11/2/09
*in da bag so far: D90|nikon 18-200|50mm f/1.8|sb700*