Just last week, I was saying that I couldn't wait to get back to work. & I love my job & miss it. But when I think about leaving him for the day, I just want to curl in a ball of misery.
It only gets harder, girl. Savor every moment, because when it's gone you can't get it back. I am counting the days until I have a day home alone with him.
And I'm very excited that DH has season NCSU b-ball tix b/c I get nights home with him now and then.
Um, yeah. The Bump be too crazy for pics of my kid.
For me, it was hardest the two or three days before I came back to work. Once I got here, I was fine because I was so busy. Today I miss him a lot. Some days are better than others.
i know the feeling, i go back thanksgiving day, i hate my job (the environment, not the job itself), and i cry every time I think about it
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Maybe I'm a freak of nature, but I actually enjoy being back at work. It's nice to force myself to have a schedule, to put make up on, to wear nice clothes, to fix my hair, to not have spit up on my clothes all day etc. I'm really busy at work so the day flies by and then I get to go pick DS up and have some good time with him in the evening.
I did have mini-breakdowns before I went back, though. I was pleasantly surprised, maybe you will be too!
Today is my first day back, and it has been hard. DH was off today, so my boys came by for lunch and it was awesome. Tomorrow will be the hardest, as it will be Connor's first day of school.
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I went back last week and I was dreading it. Surprisingly I'm actually kind of happy to be back. Don't get me wrong I miss DD like crazy, but I was going a little stir crazy at home. It's nice to get back into a routine, and I think it will help DD get into a routine too. It doesn't hurt that I have been so busy at work I don't really have time to think about missing her. She's with grandma too, so that helps.
Oh goodness..I am feeling such anxiety, it's ridiculous! I have 21 days left and I cry every time I think about it. It seems like the 12 weeks has come and gone and that means my LO is growing so fast..::sigh::
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I have eight weeks also, and I cry about it almost every day. I feel a little better knowing I have all summer off with him, but I just can't imagine leaving him and missing out on all his little "moments"
I definitely went through all of that. I was supposed to start work today but ended up in the ER last night due to a LOVELY UTI. So now tomorrow is my first day back. I'm actually better prepared today than I was yesterday for it. I hope it can stay that way...
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I go back in just over a month, I am not looking forward to it at all. I thought I was going to want to go back but I really dont want to. I just keep thinking of all the firsts I am going to miss and my mom is going to expierence because I am at work. ugh! Luckily I work early in the morning so I am home no later then 4 and one day a week im home by 2. But it still sucks!
For me, it was hardest the two or three days before I came back to work. Once I got here, I was fine because I was so busy. Today I miss him a lot. Some days are better than others.
Same here. My last week was the worst thinking, "Today will be my last Monday, Today will be my last Tuesday, etc". But once I got back into it, it got much better. Now when I make the commute home I think, "I GET to see my boys and spend time with them." Not, I have to do XYZ..... At least I try to stay positive like that. Some days are harder...those are the days I'm on here more and looking at pics.
I go back the second week of January, so I still have a little while, but we're heading down to NC to spend the holidays with our family on December 17. So yesterday I just realized I only have one more month of "selfish" time with just me and Henry together at home. It's going by so fast, and I feel like I'm just starting to enjoy it.
"For a long time there were only your footprints & laughter in our dreams & even from such small things, we knew we could not wait to love you forever."
I'm supposed to go back this Friday and have been sad about it for weeks. At this point I am seriously considering asking to extend my leave and/or go part-time for a while. We went by the daycare center this morning to introduce DD and I thought that would help, but it just made me feel worse. They are perfectly nice people, don't get me wrong... but they are not Mommy. Not even close. Maybe if we had family nearby that could help I would feel differently, but this is killing me.
And, FWIW, I was certain I'd be ready to go back after 12 weeks, so this has really been a shock to me. I never in a million years would have thought I'd feel this way. DH thinks I have lost my mind.
I have 6 weeks and I have mixed emotions about going back. Part of me yearns to be back to "my old self" of work and a schedule, but the other part of me hates the thought of someone else caring for him instead of Mommy. I am going to miss him like crazy, but hopefully my days will be so busy (I am a teacher) that it will go by fast. However, I do think that when I get home the time I spend with my kids will be more quality time with lots of attention for them.
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Baby #2: 12 cycles, 1 failed FET, natural miracle but m/c at 9 weeks then another natural miracle that stuck! 9-30-09
Maybe I'm a freak of nature, but I actually enjoy being back at work. It's nice to force myself to have a schedule, to put make up on, to wear nice clothes, to fix my hair, to not have spit up on my clothes all day etc. I'm really busy at work so the day flies by and then I get to go pick DS up and have some good time with him in the evening.
I did have mini-breakdowns before I went back, though. I was pleasantly surprised, maybe you will be too!
This was true for me too. I SAH now and sometimes wish I could go back to work!
Re: I had my first breakdown about going back to work.
It only gets harder, girl. Savor every moment, because when it's gone you can't get it back. I am counting the days until I have a day home alone with him.
And I'm very excited that DH has season NCSU b-ball tix b/c I get nights home with him now and then.
BFP 12/19/08- DS born 8/25/09 9lbs2oz via Zavanelli Maneuver
BFP 8/26/11- Missed miscarriage discovered 10/19/11 at 11w2d, measured at 9 weeks gestation w/ no HB. D&C 10/21/11
BFP 3/17/12 at 12dpo CP 3/21/12
BFP 4/23/12 at 10dpo Stick my little one! Beta #1: 83.3 @ 13dpo Beta #2: 197.7 @ 15dpo
Our little man is getting bigger every day!
My BFP Chart
Maybe I'm a freak of nature, but I actually enjoy being back at work. It's nice to force myself to have a schedule, to put make up on, to wear nice clothes, to fix my hair, to not have spit up on my clothes all day etc. I'm really busy at work so the day flies by and then I get to go pick DS up and have some good time with him in the evening.
I did have mini-breakdowns before I went back, though. I was pleasantly surprised, maybe you will be too!
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Same here. My last week was the worst thinking, "Today will be my last Monday, Today will be my last Tuesday, etc". But once I got back into it, it got much better. Now when I make the commute home I think, "I GET to see my boys and spend time with them." Not, I have to do XYZ..... At least I try to stay positive like that. Some days are harder...those are the days I'm on here more and looking at pics.
Hang in there and soak your time in.
I'm supposed to go back this Friday and have been sad about it for weeks. At this point I am seriously considering asking to extend my leave and/or go part-time for a while. We went by the daycare center this morning to introduce DD and I thought that would help, but it just made me feel worse. They are perfectly nice people, don't get me wrong... but they are not Mommy. Not even close. Maybe if we had family nearby that could help I would feel differently, but this is killing me.
And, FWIW, I was certain I'd be ready to go back after 12 weeks, so this has really been a shock to me. I never in a million years would have thought I'd feel this way. DH thinks I have lost my mind.
I had the same exerience. I just couldn't do it. I'm weak. I give props to all those out there who have the strength to balance work and family.
Baby #2: 12 cycles, 1 failed FET, natural miracle but m/c at 9 weeks then another natural miracle that stuck! 9-30-09
TTC #3 - 4 cycles - no BFP yet!
This was true for me too. I SAH now and sometimes wish I could go back to work!