TTC After a Loss

Re: ~Fridays Dirt~ Confessions!~

  • I thought having answers about why we lost Pumpkin would make me feel better. It's not making me feel better, right now.

    My EDD is on Sunday for our first baby. I can't farking believe I am sitting here mourning another baby lost at the same time. This is not how it was supposed to be. There it is. This shouldn't have happened.

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  • I have not done a good job ttc this month - even though I had 3 lovely follies at u/s. I've not kept us on task to FWP this week - and I feel terrible about it, and am mad that DH hasn't either.

     

    m/c#1 07/16/08 (11 weeks), m/c#2 10/10/08 (8 weeks). and then nothing since except every test possible (no answers). IUI#1 and #2: BFNs Super lucky to be buddies with Peetie. Our out of nowhere, surprise DD born 5/29/2011
  • 1--I'm barely working today. It's more fun here

    2--EDD for baby 2 was to be Thanksgiving Day. I know DH wants to do the normal routine, there's a part of me that just wants to be a weeping mess that day.

     

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  • I tested this morning even though I knew I shouldn't.  Embarrassed
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  • I am a complete mess today.  I need to pull it together, but am having a hard time.  I keep thinking "at this time two months ago I was...".  It isn't healthy, and I need to stop reliving everything.

    IVF cycle 1-BPF!
    9/13/09-Twin boys born at 23 weeks due to Pprom.
    Ethan and Jacob-our beautiful angel babies lived for 11 minutes and 23 hours.
    Single embryo FET 12/2009-BFP! Blake born 8/2010 at 39 weeks after 36 hours of labor and an emergency c section < IVF 2- BPF! Due April 27th Our Story
  • Ditto about not working.........

    Seriously, I know I am good at my job, but since my loss I am here so much during the day.  Quite honestly, I am not doing as much work as I should be--- and I am masking it well.  But I REALLY wanted this job, and I was SO EXCITED to start in August, and now I could care less.

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  • I am currently cleaning my desk instead of working due to it looking like a class 5 tornado came through. I need to get it straight before my four day weekend coming up.

  • AF came too early and that's my excuse for not going to the gym yesterday. (I am going tonight though)

    I want to get drunk this weekend.

    MY FOUR ANGELS... M/C 12/26/02 AT 4 WEEKS M/C 12/31/07 AT 12 WEEKS, D & C M/C 12/5/08 AT 9 WEEKS, D & C ***BFP ON 3/26/09*** MARY REYNA BORN AND PASSED AWAY JULY 31ST, 2009 AT 23 WEEKS. GOODBYE SWEET BABY...I WILL MISS YOU FOREVER. ***AFTER 17 WEEKS ON BEDREST*** Baby Birthday Ticker Ticker
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