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Was about to go to bed... great now I am crying...

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Why do we do it?? Why do we go on different boards?? Why do we look at friends updates on their pg's and ask how they are doing??Indifferent

Ugh... It's been about 3 months and still some days are worse than others... I want my baby back, I want what all my friends have!!!! Why can't I be the one with a healthy pregnancy!! I feel like I am being tortured sometimes for something I have done!! Every corner I turn there is a baby or another friend announcing their pg!!!CryingCryingCrying

By far this is the hardest and most prolonged thing I have ever experienced!!!

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  • roxyttandmeroxyttandme member

    I am right there w/ you...  I still have tough days... even tough weeks... I notice it is tougher when I PMS.... and when AF is in town... which of course is 1/2 the month.

    Big hugs to you....

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  • mlmtggmlmtgg

    I hear you. it is too hard. I wish I could say it become easier - but honestly unless it is with my close friends - I refuse to lurk on other boards (except SAL to see some hope. . .) it's too much sometimes.

    big hugs.

    m/c#1 07/16/08 (11 weeks), m/c#2 10/10/08 (8 weeks). and then nothing since except every test possible (no answers). IUI#1 and #2: BFNs Super lucky to be buddies with Peetie. Our out of nowhere, surprise DD born 5/29/2011
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  • hopingwaitinghopingwaiting
    Sorry hon.  I still have those days.  (((Hugs)))) for you.
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  • KaraMayRNKaraMayRN

    My heart goes out to you with full understanding! Take each day as they come, I know that is all I do.

    Take Care

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  • grr_aarghgrr_aargh member

    I'm sorry.  :(

    Honestly, I'm beginning to feel like I'll never graduate from this board.  No offense, I like the ladies here. . . I'd like us all to graduate together.  Can we plan on that? 

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  • kimber926kimber926 member
    I'm sorry you're having a rough day.  I, too, feel like it's never going to end.  At least we're in it together.
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  • pbhennessypbhennessy member

    I'm so so sorry *hugs*

    I totally feel for you.  The past two days (11/10 and 11/11) were also my three month anniversary of finding out about my missed mc and my d&c.  It's crazy how the pain is still so fresh.  And like you, I feel like everyone else IRL has babies, babies, and more babies.  It's so unfair.

    I wish none of us had to be here.  My heart goes out to you and everyone else on this board. 

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  • daphne814daphne814 member
    Oh Tracy!  I went to bed too early and missed this post.  I'm so sorry you're feeling so bad.  I totally agree with everything you said.  I think this is the hardest thing any of us will have to deal with (I mean, we deal with a lot of crap, but there isn't anything worse that this IMHO).  The hardest part is dealing with all the things around us that make us remember what we had, and lost.  I feel like ever since this happened, 99.9% of my close friend all got pregnant, and every time I leave the house I see at least 6.7 pregnant women or women carrying little babies.  It's all like pouring salt in the wounds.  Just know that you are not alone, and keep letting it out on here.  This is such a great outlet for us.  Hope you feel better today!

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  • JayandTay09JayandTay09
    I hear ya..Some days are ok - other days I am an emotional wreck...I just try to take it one day at a time...We are allowed to grieve, we lost a baby...I keep telling myself it will get easier - I will never forget but the pain will subside...I hope it gets easier for us soon!!!!
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