having a mini-meltdown today

Mrs.Reem · November 2009

I'm so irrational this morning that it's not even funny. All of the stress of everything going on, plus not much sleep has just shot my logical nature.

Katen and I were exposed to H1N1 again. I've been trying so hard to get Katen vaccinated but can't stand in lines that are 3 hours long right now. I've kept her out of playgroups, library activities, etc but did go to a small playdate with just two other kids and moms. That's where we were exposed of course.

We're still waiting on an offer to come in on our house. The potential buyers' realtor said we'd hear by the end of the week. I'm so tired of keeping the place clean being as huge as I am and with a toddler running around. I'm afraid they've changed their minds and it's making me bonkers to wait. Nevermind that we haven't completely picked out the new house that we'll move into.

DH is leaving on Thursday for the Bahamas. I'm not really worried about handling things on my own but the days are going to be really long for Katen and me. He's also gone all day today and tomorrow. ugh.

I just looked up Katen's weight at the date when she should have been born and she was 9lbs at that time already. How am I going to push out a 9lb'er? Isn't the second baby generally bigger than the first? Oh geez.

I feel like such a bad mom right now. I'm so huge and sore and all Katen wants to do is play rough and take walks to the park. I'm having a tough time doing both. I feel like I'm neglecting her by asking her to do quiet activities all the time.

...and I'm tired. and huge. and.... I'll probably delete this later when I come to my senses because this post is stupid. I just needed to get it off my chest. *$(#*# hormones!

beebe929 · November 2009

I am sorry you are having a tough time. I wish I could say it would get easier.. at least you will FEEL better.

Hang in there. It is worth it.

charmcitygirl · November 2009

I'm so sorry you're having a bad day. There is certainly a lot going on in your life right now and I think you could use a break from everything. I wish your DH was home this weekend to give you that much-needed break.

((hugs))

howleyshell · November 2009

Mrs.Reem:
I feel like such a bad mom right now. I'm so huge and sore and all Katen wants to do is play rough and take walks to the park. I'm having a tough time doing both. I feel like I'm neglecting her by asking her to do quiet activities all the time.

You've got a lot on your plate and OF COURSE you're hormonal!!!

FWIW though - EVERYONE feels this way at the end of their pregnancy with #2. Especially when #1 is still so little.

The good news for you is that she will NOT remember that you were exhausted and not wanting to do as much physical stuff with her.

Hang in there Hon. You're in the home stretch now...

And you're doing GREAT!

duke'sgirl · November 2009

This post isn't stupid! Vent away!! You are NOT a bad mom. Hang in there. I hpe things calm down for you soon!

LisaMarisa · November 2009

It is totally normal to feel this way and selling a house on top of it seems like torture! I really hope you get the offer soon. The waiting and negotiations are so stressful. I was always worried that they were going to walk away, my realtor wanted to get us more money. In the end, she was right but I'm sure my BP this week was through the roof! Hopefully your offer is one you can accept without going back and forth. Good luck!

eyenerd · November 2009

I think everything you are ranting about it perfectly justified!!! Hang in there. It is just one of those days:)

eyenerd · November 2009

I think everything you are ranting about it perfectly justified!!! Hang in there. It is just one of those days:)

dana316 · November 2009

(((Hugs)))

Vent away, Mama...that's what we are here for...

alchris · November 2009

Everything you're saying makes perfect sense! No need to feel guilty about any of it. Most of us older kids don't remember our mommies "neglecting" us in their third trimester with #2, esp. not at <2 years old, LOL. I hope you get everything works out with your house and that everyone stays healthy! And I hope DH has a great trip and that you and Katen enjoy some valuable Mommy/daughter-only time, even as exhausted as you are. We're here when you need to vent, really. HUGS!!!

LucyPevensie · November 2009

Reems - there is nothing stupid about this post. Everything you are writing about is genuinely stressful and/or tiring. The last few weeks of pregnancy are no joke - and you have a lot going on. Take care of yourself and hang in there!

yankee42 · November 2009

Omg reems, you know I know the feeling... I cried almost every day the last couple of weeks before she was born. I felt so sorry for the boys.. And really felt like I was letting them down. It was also right at the beginning of DH's fall semester of his music school, so he was never here (and you know how much help he is when he's here anyways, haha) You have every right to vent!!! I did not know how tough pregnancy was until I had a full term baby! I am here any time you need.. I check in on my phone here and FB while I'm feeding her (which is all the time

if you ever need to chat give me a holla

JillRock96 · November 2009

You are completely entitled to your meltdown -- and I don't think any of it is irrational. You have so much going on -- it's no wonder you feel overwhelmed! Thinking of you and sending (((HUGS))) today!