I have PPD - just felt like sharing.

JoelsGirl07 · October 2009

I went to my postpartum visit this morning and the doc walked in and took one look at me and asked me what was wrong. She told me I had PPD written all over my face. I thought I was in a pretty good mood this morning, especially since E had a fabulous night (he only woke 2 times in 9 hours, and only one of those was to eat...the other time he fell back asleep as soon as I picked him up).

Also, thanks to everyone who voted on my BC poll...I talked to the doc about it and we decided on the mini-pill.

GTG, now...my MIL, BIL, and nephew are tearing up my rec room and I have to go be social with them.....

MrsKLB · October 2009

Did your doc actually give you any medication or a referral to someone to talk to about the PPD? I'm glad you're in a good mood today, but do take PPD seriously if people around you are concerned. Did you talk to your DH about this to see if he has noticed anything? You need to take care of yourself so you can be there for your little one. Good luck!

soon2b3 · October 2009

You know what...I thought I was doing "pretty good" the whole first 6 months of Doodle's life. I wasn't...PPD is so hard, because I always felt like...oh this horribley down feeling is normal, my hormones are still out of whack, I'm just tired/exhuasted...i'm really just fine. But after 6 months of being "just fine" i really wasn't. Then my Dr was like, you want to ENJOY your baby are you able to do that...and I bust into uncontrollable tears. Needless to say, I had PPD too. I don't remember much of Doodle's first few weeks of her life, I didn't want to hold her or look at her. I didn't eat or drink or take a shower or get dressed or do much of anything for about 3-4 weeks. I was so thankful when I finally got some help. We also worked out a plan to nip it in the butt with Darren. It's been NIGHT AND DAY different. I'm so glad your Dr is on top of it and hopefully finds a good solution to help your deal with your PPD.

MrsBrandiGreene · October 2009

Ditto exactly.....I loved Harrison and took impeccable care of him but I never did enjoy him honestly. He was probably 4 months old before I did and that was after ALOT of help from friends and family...and getting some help. I was absolutely ashamed of how I was feeling, but it happens and its very normal. I did some pre-emptive measures with Avery too and life has been so different. Please take care of yourself!

Kerrin · October 2009

So glad that you are getting some help with this. With the dramatic change that comes with giving birth, sometimes it's hard to distinguish between PPD and being tired and hormonal. Good for you for discussing this with your doctor.

JoelsGirl07 · October 2009

Thanks, ladies. I have a history of depression since I was 12. I have been off and on meds...mostly off since they discovered my hypothyroidism had a lot to do with my mood. At about 20 weeks, I had the MW put me on Zoloft because I was having uncontrollable crying. It helped a lot. The doctor just increased my dose and told me to call if I didn't feel improvement in a few weeks.

You all are right...I really haven't felt like I've enjoyed my son. I've loved him, and loved being a mom, but I haven't had any fun. I never thought about it that way...like you all, I just assumed that this was how I was supposed to feel. But I figured that since I was STILL having recurring dreams about the birth (I'm having a hard time dealing with it - long story) and the fact that I haven't even wanted to leave the house for 2 days combined with my absentmindedness (increased) that I should speak up.

kep · October 2009

((HUGS)) I hope you are feeling better asap. Thanks for sharing your story, and good for you for taking care of yourself.

mingaling2 · October 2009

I hope you are back on track and feeling like yourself soon. I, too, have a history of depression and had to stop taking my meds when I found out I was pregnant. {hugs}

dbryson · October 2009

Hey ...I have a friend who went through this and has now organized resources and support groups for Moms with PPD.

Her name is Amber. She is amazing. Please at least go to the blog or contact her. She posts a wealth of information.

https://www.atlantappdmom.blogspot.com/

https://www.gpsnetwork.org/

https://www.meetup.com/PPDAtlanta/

slwprincess · October 2009

JoelsGirl07:

But I figured that since I was STILL having recurring dreams about the birth (I'm having a hard time dealing with it - long story)

First of all, good for you for sharing your story and for being smart and brave enough to admit that somethings not right. That makes you an awesome mommy right off the bat!!! Secondly, I just wanted to say that I had these same dreams after having gavin. I didn't have a traumatic birth experience at all, but he ended up in the NICU almost immediately and that had such an effect on my subconsious. I was waking up screaming and sweating for weeks, even months after he was born. I mean I was soaking through my pj's kind of sweat! I don't know what it's about and it has to be related to the hormones, but it was horrible and I am sure it is really making your situation that much harder. I also have thyroid problems and now I'm wondering if that could have been playing a part in the dreams? Could just be a coincidence but maybe something to mention to your doc- and be sure to get your thyroid levels checked regularly... mine were all over the place those first few months after he was born. I just wanted you to know that you are not alone- and that does happen to some people but it too shall pass :-) Hang in there and keep us posted!

yellowtulips80 · October 2009

glad you are going to get help. I'm here if you need me.

scherza · October 2009

Hang in there, and don't be afraid to vent/share/ask for help/whatever!

I had PPD with Elizabeth, and it was awful. I was so stressed and anxious and unhappy, and like the other girls have said, I couldn't enjoy her. I got a therapist and things improved for me, and we had a plan in place to pre-empt any PPD episodes with William.

It does get better. And PPD doesn't mean you're a bad mom or that you don't love your baby -- I had a hard time not feeling like one or both of those things was true some days.

mrsd0907 · October 2009

I'm glad you're reaching out and getting help. Don't think for one second it means you're a bad mother or doing the wrong thing. It's just the crazy hormones after birth and more normal than not. We're here if you need us. Keep us updated. GL.

Mrs. atlgatorgirl · October 2009

I am so proud of you for sharing your story and getting help right away. If you need ANYTHING, please don't hesitate to ask. I am here for you, whatever you need. Ella and I only have a few plans next week. We can come hang out or meet you somewhere.

You are doing a fantastic job w/ Eli and you are a great mommy. Now it's time to take care of you so you.

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