My horrible, awful FFFC:
When I read about horrible things like the 9 mo old baby dying of H1N1 or kids being snatched and murdered and so on, I have an irrational and desperate urge to have another child because that way if something were to happen, I would still have more kids. As if that would fill the void left by the sudden death of DD or DS. Which it wouldn't. And I know that. But it doesn't stop that urge. And the urge doesn't make me throw the BCP in the trash either...
DD -- 5YO
DS -- 3YO
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I have had that thought too. It was part of my reasoning to have a second child.
That stuff so terrifies me. We were going to try for another anyway, but yeah, I feel that urge already!
I don't know what FFFC means, but I am guessing it's a guilty secret? If it is, I will admit that I was and am more than a little afraid of having a little girl, because pre-teen and teen girls are so frequently cruel... and I don't want her to hurt me.
Yes, I come from a family of five girls and one boy, I know all to well of what I speak.
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I already shared mine in the form of my morning post. ugh.
maybe we feel this way about having more is because even though the other children wouldn't take the place of the missing or deceased child, but we can still hug them and love them afterward...? i have five at the moment and love them all immensely and differently. i would be beyond brokenhearted if something happened to any of them!!!
Here's mine: I'm selfish and put some of my needs ahead of DS.
If I need to pee, I let him cry.
Once I got over the guilt re: not even trying to breastfeed, I ate peanut butter and drank coffee. Now I realize that he'd have been on my boobs every 2 hours the way he eats and I'm glad he's formula fed.
The main reason we're trying to switch him back to the Enfamil Premium Lipil is because it costs less than the Gentlease & comes in ready to use nursettes for travel. But if it causes him gas pain, we'll go back to Gentlease.
I always wanted 2 children but due to our finances, we decided on one. Now that he's here, I really just want one. I don't want to go through the sleepless nights again or change two kids' worth of diapers.
I adore Aaron... but he's it.
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LOL, after reading your post earlier - does it involve Tylenol or Benedryl???
Here's mine. I am happily married and I love my DH - he's a good man (loyal, basically a good person, ect.) and loving daddy - but I think he's just an @ss - not at that moment - but in general... I try not to let that kind of thinking overpower the good, but seriously - get some empathy for others, Pal, grow it, buy it, dig it out of the ground..whatever, just freakin' get some. I try not to ask myself "WTF was I thinking?".
Terrible, I know. Thankfully, he's a good daddy and he gave me a sweet, adorable baby - so he continues to live....
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hmmm, I hate to admit this, but I feel the EXACT same way... God I hope he doesn't read this!
My friends hate my DH, they're nice about it but they've made comments, my parents don't think he treats me well either...so I'll say it, What in the freakin' world was I thinking? Thank God, "I'm" a happy person, otherwise my life would be miserable... (sigh)
Here's my FFFC (actually we're Sat now so it should be FFSC) ... I do want another child, I grew up an only child and do not want to do that to DS, but I'm not sure I want another child with my DH (pretty bad huh?)
ok here's mine....just one of many that I could post.
I do want another child but I REALLY don't want to pregnant again. I hated pretty much all of it. I know its supposed to be beautiful and amazing but I was freakin miserable! I was totally nervous and paranoid until he literally came out of me.( due to 2 losses), I hated giving up certain foods and vices.....I really want to adopt but we have no money and no one will approve us for a baby based on that......