I ended up having general anethesia for my c-section last week because I felt them cutting me. It was terrible and I have been so emotional all week about not seeing my DS come out after all of that time. It was all an emergency and a surprise. It has really been hard on me and I have been crying every time I think about it.
I was wondering if anyone else had general for a c-section and why you had it. If so, how are you coping with all of it or do you not mind? Maybe I'm taking this too hard or it is just my baby blues...Not sure. It would be nice to hear others' stories though.
Re: General Anesthesia and C-Section?
This happened to me when I had DS. I labored for over 24 hours, had a spinal (to take the edge off the contractions) and then did not respond to the Spinal for the c/s so they knocked me out too.
I did feel bad for quite a while. I was so out of it. My c/s was at 3AM - I finally *met* DS at 9AM (I HAD to sleep after everything) and it was just sad.
I eventually got over it though and realized that he is here and everything turned out o.k. in the end!!
Please do not beat yourself up for it. There are several ladies on here that have had the same thing happen.
They told me the first spinal probably triggered me not feeling the 2nd OR that I moved during a contraction and it simply did not take like it should have. I was terrified that with DD I would have to be knocked out again but trust me if you have another c/s it is SOOOOOOO much easier the 2nd time around and you don't feel like crap after laboring, etc.
My birth story is in my bio if you want to read it though.
I didn't have general, but I've still had a really hard time coping with my c-section. It's perfectly normal to go through this. You aren't taking it too hard--it was an upsetting, emotional experience and on top of it, you are adjusting to life with a baby. Cut yourself some slack (and I mean that in the nicest way possible!). Your feelings are what they are. There is no right or wrong way to feel.
You might want to check out the International Cesarean Awareness Network. They have forums, articles and resources for moms recovering from a cesarean--both physically and emotionally. There are some other good articles online if you search for recovering emotionally from a c-section, or something like that.
GL and best wishes.
I had to have an emerg c-section too because DS's heartrate went into the 200's. Completely unexpected. I know I should have, but I barely even let the thought of a c-section enter my mind when I was pregnant so I really wasn't prepared at all. I was terrified, and I wasn't allowed to be scared or even think about it while they were prepping me. Every time I did, my heartbeat would go up and so would the baby's.
I didn't have the general anethesia, but they did dose me up with extra because I could feel something sharp. Honesly, I don't know if I really could or if I was paranoid, but I told him to give me everything. I was so out of it. I barely saw DS when they pulled him out - caught just a quick glimpse. They pulled the cart over to clean him up and I kept dosing off then too. Thank God DH did his best to film some of it. I cried when I first saw how much I missed out on.
The first night/day was hard because DH had to do pretty much everything. It was a good bonding thing for DH, but those first few days I just felt like I was floating.
Honestly, I know I have a bit of baby blues from it too. I was always pretty open and flexible with my birth plan, but it was so hard to not get that initial bonding time with DS. I know it's hard, but it does get better! It's really helped to talk to DH/family. Even if it's just having them repeatedly reminding me that it had to happen and that all that matters is that we're both healthy.
I felt exactly the same way! I was being induced and when the Dr. broke my water, I had a cord prolapse (the cord came out before the baby's head). The nurse jumped on top of me and shoved her hand up me to keep my baby's head off the cord. I was wheeled to the OR and put under in about 2 minutes. My husband didn't even make it inside. So, neither of us saw her being born. I woke up very confused. She ended up in the NICU for 8 days due to breathing problems because of the traumatic birth. Thankfully, she is completely fine, but I was VERY angry about the whole thing. Not only the birth, but every vision I had in mind of my new baby's first few days rooming with us was gone. I had to listen to new moms with their babies while I had to wait until certain times so I could maybe get to touch her foot. Yes, of course I am happy that everything turned out fine, but I'm angry that I had such a horrible birth experience.
But it does get better. I had some serious baby blues for a few weeks, but it passed. I still get a little sad when I think about the birth, but for the most part, I'm getting there in healing emotionally.
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Like some of the other ladies, I didn't have general anesthesia with my C-section, but I did have a hard time coping with how my DD came into the world. After 28 hours of labor, my induction was declared failed/stalled - I only made it to 5cm, and I had been there for 12 hours - and I had my daughter within 45 min. of deciding to quit the pit and do a C. DH held her first, for a good 20 min. while they were finishing me up, and when he gave her to me in recovery, she cried for about 2 seconds, until she heard my voice.
Let's just say it was NOT how I imagined birth. And I had milk supply issues due to all the trauma, so C-section + can't BF = MAJOR baby blues.
And yes, like everyone else has said - it does and it WILL get better. GL.