Let me just preface this by saying that I have been on estrogen for 2 weeks, I am really, really sick and my entire house is in shambles due to the burst pipe under our house that we discovered this week.
So... my estrogen levels suck. I could tell yesterday that my RE was not loving my lining, but he wanted to wait for the #s. And now I know he is concerned by my #s. I feel like this is in the tanker already.
So, now I have to take mega doses of estrace and probably will not transfer until like the 11th or 12th. That is if my levels go up.
This sucks. I have never had lining issues before ( I hope this is not due to my D&C) and I just feel like this is a bad omen already.
I just feel discouraged . I have a huge assembly that involves a significant portion of my school on Monday morning, now I have to have b/w done, so I am going to be late to school and the assembly. So, I had to scramble to find someone to help me out. And... it is going to cause all kinds of issues for me if we transfer on the 12th.
I absolutely HATE trying. I pissed, depressed, sad ... you name it.. all over again. I have not felt this in so long- because we have been on a break.
I hate this crap... maybe it is time to give up.
Re: FET pushed back... so upset.
Aw man that sucks! Hopefully it will work out.
((hugs))
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Oh no! I can't imagine the frustration you are feeling both at your dr's concerns and pushing the date back.
I hope you feel better soon too!
Lots of good wishes sent your way that everything goes smoothly on the 12th!
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Smilee, Im sorry. It is so so freaking frustrating when cycles dont work as planned. It is so hard to fit it all in.... Im sorry that you are feeling this way.
Sending hugs.
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Please don't give up. I know it may seem like everything is against you and to lump everything together, but you just have to power ahead. Your house etc has nothing to do with your lining. It sucks that you are sick on top of all this, so please try to rest as much as you can. If a few more days is going to be better for your lining, then it is worth it. What's a few more days after all you have waited? We are all pulling for you. ((HUGS))
I hate this crap too.
I'm so sorry you have to push FET back, that is so frustrating. Why can't shi!t just work out the way we want it too!
Praying your #'s go up and all goes well. You can also add some POM juice to help with lining.
I hate this for you smilee - I got your back my dear.
If you want to meet up next week after work, I'm off Monday for HSG, we could buy some shoes
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I'm so sorry Smilee! I totally understand why you are discouraged, but it's not time for you to give up. Let yourself digest this news for a bit. You never know, your lining could bounce back.
(((((hugs))))) to you!
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After months of being postponed or cancelled, FET #1.3 (Natural FET) brought us twin girls!
No! ?Its not time to give up, this all sounds so frustrating and I can understand why you feel the way you do. ?You've gotten the ball rolling and would feel even worse if you abandoned this cycle. ?Let's hope that the estrace gets your levels on track and your lining nice and thick, all ready for those embies. ?These cycles take so much out of you plus the added stress of the house in disarray plus the work conflicts are difficult but I KNOW you can do this. ?
((HUGS))?
I am so sorry that you are going through this. Why can't anything just be easy?
You will be in my thoughts and prayers.
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Oh K! I am sooooooo sorry
I know how discouraging it is to get pushed back. And, I know a week doesn't seem like a very long time, but it's a long time when you've been waiting forever! Just to let you know, my lining had a hard time bulking up before my FET too. I had to increase my patches and Estrace and I was really bummed thinking it was a bad sign. It wasn't though! I am sure your body is just adjusting to everything and trying to keep up with everything you have going on!!!
Keep your chin up! I know you'll get there fast, and I will cross my fingers for 10/11 instead of 10/12.
Oh Kelly, I'm really sorry you're going through this. The frustration must be awful. I know exactly what you mean about trying...I hate it with a passion as well. And when you're knee-deep in this IF bullsh*t, it is very, very hard to see the light at the end of the tunnel. I have no words of wisdom other than to say I've felt this way many, many times. I really hope your lining thickens and that the rest of this cycle goes smoothly and most importantly, that a sticky BFP will be the result. Lots of hugs to you, hon.
Don't give up Smilee! You are so strong and you can do this. I hope this will be the only hardship through this cycle and you'll come out with a great lining for your little sticky to live in!
We're here for you when you need us. Good Luck!
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I'm sorry. Lots of <<Hugs>>. Try to do something nice for yourself this weekend.
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that sucks and i hate how it interferes with our lives and our emotions...hoepfully everything will go smoothly in the next few weeks...
I'm so sorry ((hugs))
I can totally relate, coming off a break and having to deal with all this crap again sucks. I'm so over this and just want to move on with life. Going through IF isnt bad enough, but then to top it off nothing works the way its suppose to, it's just not fair! I have already accepted this cycle is a bust for me too.
Hang in there, you can't give up yet! I'm praying this is your cycle, It's our turn damn it!!
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After 4yrs, 5 IUI's, 2 IVF's, 2 FET's, PGD, and 5 losses our little miracle is finally here!
IVF#1 Oct 2009 (CCRM) - BFN
IVF#2 March 2010 - Poor response/cancelled
DE IVF#1 Aug 2010 - BFN
DE IVF#2 Dec 2010 - Transferred 1, 2 frozen - BFP!
TTC#2 FET Jan 2013 - Transferred 1 - BFP!
Smilee, I'm so sorry! Don't give up hope - it WILL happen!
You have a lot going on right now and it's understandable that you'd be overwhelmed and upset BUT you CANNOT give up. I don't think anyone here will allow it. Sending big hugs your way and hope that things start to look up for you soon.
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Converted IVF - BFP - m/c | FET - BFN | IVF #2 = BFN
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