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FET pushed back... so upset.

Let me just preface this by saying that I have been on estrogen for 2 weeks, I am really, really sick and my entire house is in shambles due to the burst pipe under our house that we discovered this week. 

So... my estrogen levels suck.  I could tell yesterday that my RE was not loving my lining, but he  wanted to wait for the #s. And now I know he is concerned by my #s.  I feel like this is in the tanker already. 

So, now I have to take mega doses of estrace and probably will not transfer until like the 11th or 12th. That is if my levels go up.

This sucks.  I have never had lining issues before ( I hope this is not due to my D&C) and I just feel like this is a bad omen already.   

I just feel discouraged .  I have a huge assembly that involves a significant portion of my school on Monday morning, now I have to have b/w done, so I am going to be late to school and the assembly.  So, I had to scramble to find someone to help me out.  And... it is going to cause all kinds of issues for me if we transfer on the 12th. 

I absolutely HATE trying.  I pissed, depressed, sad ... you name it.. all over again.  I have not felt this in so long- because we have been on a break.

I hate this crap... maybe it is time to give up.  

 

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Re: FET pushed back... so upset.

  • Aw man that sucks!  Hopefully it will work out.

    ((hugs))

     

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  • oh hon I am so sorry. I hate it too and have felt this way many times.
  • big (((hugs)))
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  • Oh no, Smilee, I am so sorry to hear that. Don't give up, you are so strong, you can do this. It's just a little bump in the road. Your body just needs a little bit more time building the perfect lining for those little embies to burrow into. (((HUGS)))
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  • Oh no!  I can't imagine the frustration you are feeling both at your dr's concerns and pushing the date back.   

    I hope you feel better soon too! 

    Lots of good wishes sent your way that everything goes smoothly on the 12th!

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  • I'm so sorry to hear this! And I'm sorry you are feeling so down. I'll be thinking of you..
    TTC #1 since June 2008 *SAIFW*

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  • Smilee, Im sorry.   It is so so freaking frustrating when cycles dont work as planned.  It is so hard to fit it all in.... Im sorry that you are feeling this way. 

    Sending hugs. 

  • Oh honey. I'm so sorry. I know how frustrating and disappointing this whole process can be. It will get better. You will have success. It's hard to imagine now, but it will happen. This is just a setback. Your RE can add more estrogen and do other things for your lining. (I am now the #1 fan of Viagra suppositories). We all have bad days (I'm having one today too). Lean on us. Lean on your hunky hubbie. You'll get through this!
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  • Please don't give up. I know it may seem like everything is against you and to lump everything together, but you just have to power ahead. Your house etc has nothing to do with your lining. It sucks that you are sick on top of all this, so please try to rest as much as you can. If a few more days is going to be better for your lining, then it is worth it. What's a few more days after all you have waited? We are all pulling for you. ((HUGS))

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  • I hate this crap too. 

    I'm so sorry you have to push FET back, that is so frustrating.  Why can't shi!t just work out the way we want it too!

    Praying your #'s go up and all goes well.  You can also add some POM juice to help with lining.

    I hate this for you smilee - I got your back my dear.

    If you want to meet up next week after work, I'm off Monday for HSG, we could buy some shoes :)

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  • I'm so sorry Smilee! I totally understand why you are discouraged, but it's not time for you to give up. Let yourself digest this news for a bit. You never know, your lining could bounce back.

    (((((hugs))))) to you! 

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  • I'm sorry that you are going through this.  Yes, IF SUCKS!!  Hang in there B/C the end result is soo worth it.  Good luck.
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  • HUGS!  I'm so sorry.  I hate the waiting game....  You're in the homestretch, though!
  • As I read your post, I just yelled at my computer. I am so upset for you. But it isn't time to give up. It will happen. I'm sorry. 
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  • No! ?Its not time to give up, this all sounds so frustrating and I can understand why you feel the way you do. ?You've gotten the ball rolling and would feel even worse if you abandoned this cycle. ?Let's hope that the estrace gets your levels on track and your lining nice and thick, all ready for those embies. ?These cycles take so much out of you plus the added stress of the house in disarray plus the work conflicts are difficult but I KNOW you can do this. ?

    ((HUGS))?

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  • Smilee I'm so sorry you were pushed back :( you have been through so much.  Your little snowbabies are definately not wanting you to give up.  Once you get things straightened out I'm sure you'll feel up to fighting again.  I 'm sure you are very frustrated and pi$$ed.  Hang in there. 
  • I am so sorry that you are going through this.  Why can't anything just be easy?

    You will be in my thoughts and prayers.

    (((HUGS)))

  • Oh no! Huge Hugs to you!!!. I'm sorry for everything that you are going through. I wish there was something more I could do or say. Hang in there!
    DX PCOS w/IR 01/08.
    Currently pg with our 1st after 6.5 yrs of IF (thank you IVF)
     
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  • Oh K! I am sooooooo sorry :( I know how discouraging it is to get pushed back. And, I know a week doesn't seem like a very long time, but it's a long time when you've been waiting forever! Just to let you know, my lining had a hard time bulking up before my FET too. I had to increase my patches and Estrace and I was really bummed thinking it was a bad sign. It wasn't though! I am sure your body is just adjusting to everything and trying to keep up with everything you have going on!!!

    Keep your chin up! I know you'll get there fast, and I will cross my fingers for 10/11 instead of 10/12.

     

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  • Oh Kelly, I'm really sorry you're going through this.  The frustration must be awful.  I know exactly what you mean about trying...I hate it with a passion as well.  And when you're knee-deep in this IF bullsh*t, it is very, very hard to see the light at the end of the tunnel.  I have no words of wisdom other than to say I've felt this way many, many times.  I really hope your lining thickens and that the rest of this cycle goes smoothly and most importantly, that a sticky BFP will be the result.  Lots of hugs to you, hon.

    TTC #1 w/ endo since Sept 2005. After many losses, a lap, tons of meds and tons of testing and, one failed IVF cycle, we were blown away with a surprise, sticky BFP...it's a girl!!! Lilypie Second Birthday tickers
  • Awww Smilee, I'm sorry things aren't going smoothly.  I know how you are feeling right now. After losing our donor yesterday I said the same thing to DH last night.  But we are strong women and we are going to kick infertility's a$$!!!
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  • I'm sorry :( I really have no words. I hope everything works out. ((hugs))
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  • Don't give up Smilee! You are so strong and you can do this. I hope this will be the only hardship through this cycle and you'll come out with a great lining for your little sticky to live in!

    We're here for you when you need us. Good Luck!

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  • I'm sorry.  Lots of <<Hugs>>.  Try to do something nice for yourself this weekend. 

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  • I'm sorry thsi is happening. I agree that waiting is the worst part of all of this! You are strong & you will get there & get your BFP!
  • that sucks and i hate how it interferes with our lives and our emotions...hoepfully everything will go smoothly in the next few weeks...

     

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  • I'm so sorry ((hugs))

    I can totally relate, coming off a break and having to deal with all this crap again sucks. I'm so over this and just want to move on with life. Going through IF isnt bad enough, but then to top it off nothing works the way its suppose to, it's just not fair! I have already accepted this cycle is a bust for me too.

    Hang in there, you can't give up yet! I'm praying this is your cycle, It's our turn damn it!!

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  • Oh I'm so sorry, Smilee.  I am sorry you are feeling so discouraged.  Please don't give up.  We are all here for you.  Hang in there - you have so much going on!  Take good care of yourself.
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    IVF#2 March 2010 - Poor response/cancelled
    DE IVF#1 Aug 2010 - BFN
    DE IVF#2 Dec 2010 - Transferred 1, 2 frozen - BFP!
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  • I"m so sorry this is happening to you. I'm pretty new, but I always notice how positive and supportive you are to everyone on this board. Hopefully you are feeling the support now! Sending you hugs....
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  • Don't give up!! It does suck being on a teacher schedule and going through all this crap. On the other hand you want your body to be in absolute perfect condition for your embies so it's better to take the time your body needs to get ready. Hang in there!!!
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  • Smilee, I'm so sorry!  Don't give up hope - it WILL happen!

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  • You have a lot going on right now and it's understandable that you'd be overwhelmed and upset BUT you CANNOT give up.  I don't think anyone here will allow it.  Sending big hugs your way and hope that things start to look up for you soon.

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  • Oh God Smilee I am so sorry. I am reading your post and although I am not in your exact situation, I know EXACTLY how you feel. Everything is happening at once, you have to maintain yourself at work, etc. I know how hard it all is. But please do not give up. There is tons of fight left in you and everything is going to work out for the best - I promise. You have hundreds of ladies on here rooting for you.
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  • Oh Smilee.  I'm sorry.  How much estrace did they have you on?
    Beautiful Miracle Baby lost at 21 weeks due to pre-term labor and incompetent cervix. FET#1 BFN, FET#2 BFP, early loss. FET#3 BFN. IVF#2 BFFN. FET #4 BFP after removing bilateral hydrosalpinx and 3 months of lupron depot. Sticky Bun is here!! Image and video hosting by TinyPic Baby Birthday Ticker Ticker
  • I'm sorry smillee. Nothng like being kicked when you are down! Try to remain positive and know that your RE is doing what is best for you. Hoping it all works out in the end.
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  • ::Hugs:: don't give up smilee!  you are too strong!  i pray that EVERYTHING turns out okay and that your stress eases a bit.  i'm sorry that everything seems to be going wrong right now :(  and i hope you feel better soon
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    Hypoglycemic | thyroid issues | severely anemic
    Multiple Clomid cycles of 50, 100, 150 - absolutely no response
    Follistim 50/100 | Follistim 75/125 | Follistim 100/150 IUI - all BFNs
    Converted IVF - BFP - m/c | FET - BFN | IVF #2 = BFN
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