TTC After a Loss

I REALLY wish I could find my camera...

So I could show you the beautiful, clear two lines on my HPT! Not faint, in the slightest. Two lines!!

Oh, God, oh please, let this be real. Let me keep this baby.

I'm shaking and sobbing like a dork right now. Please tell me the lower back pain and cramps from yesterday are just my body getting ready and my baby settling in. I'm freaking out.

Okay, and also talk me down from this - last month we had a wedding to go to. We got our BFP then night before, and then we lost the baby three days later. I'm heading to a wedding tomorrow. That means nothing. Just tell me that means nothing.

Sorry, I'm totally rambling, and DH is working late, and I just want this baby so bad and I've only known about him/her for two minutes. I love you guys, and I just...you know, only you would all know what is going through my mind right now.

I'm having a baby. Please God, let me hold this one.

Re: I REALLY wish I could find my camera...

  • ahhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!! Party!!!

    congrats girl!!!!! 

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  • OMG Yay! And going to a wedding tomorrow just means you have lots of friends that are getting married now. There's nothing connecting the two. YAYAYAYAY! Congrats!!
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  • Congrats!  Stick little one, stick!
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  • Woohooo! Pumpkin Patch wave has started!

    congrats and can't wait to hear more!

    m/c#1 07/16/08 (11 weeks), m/c#2 10/10/08 (8 weeks). and then nothing since except every test possible (no answers). IUI#1 and #2: BFNs Super lucky to be buddies with Peetie. Our out of nowhere, surprise DD born 5/29/2011
  • wowzers!!!  that's great.  you got a dark positive in the evening, without fmu?  yay, woot woot!!!  so happy for you, congrats!
  • imagetexas77:
    wowzers!!!  that's great.  you got a dark positive in the evening, without fmu?  yay, woot woot!!!  so happy for you, congrats!

    It was like that the first time, too. I got my BFP at 6:30 p.m. or so. Don't know why. Someone is rewarding my impatience.

  • that is awesome!!!  how many dpo are you?
  • imagetexas77:
    that is awesome!!!  how many dpo are you?

    In theory 11 DPO, but I kind of think I Od a couple of days early, going off of O pain and EWCM. So we may be more like 13-4 DPO. I guess I won't really know until I go in, I wasn't charting or temping, so I'm kind of useless for that. It would explain why the line is darker than it should be, at this time of day.

  • Congrats!!!! Let the wave begin for the pumpkin patch testers!!!!! H&H 9 months.

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  • OMG, congratulations!!!!!!!!!!!!!!   Going to a wedding tomorrow means nothing, other than you can't drink now, lol!   Today you are pregnant and you love your baby!!

    BFP #1 - 2/1/09-mc 2/5/09 @4wks
    BFP #2 - 6/24/09-mc 7/25/09 @8wks
    6/09 Dx w/PCOS--Metformin & Progesterone
    8/09 Dx w/Compound Hetero MTHFR--Neevo, Metanx & BA
    BFP #3 - 1/11/10 - DD1 born 9/16/10 @39w4d, 8lbs 14oz & 20in.
    Heparin from BFP to 34wks.
    BFP #4 - 10/4/11 - DD2 born 6/2/12 @38w1d, 8lbs 11oz & 21in.
    Same med protocol as last time, but heparin continued until delivery.
    BFP #5 - 3/30/14, EDC 12/10/14!!

    Beta #1-76 (12dpo), Beta #2-238 (14dpo)
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  • Holy crap!! Congratulations!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
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  • Hooray!!!!  Hooray!!!!  God is sending you to a wedding tomorrow with your sticky baby in tow so that you won't end up hating weddings for the rest of your life.  Enjoy your baby and your pregnancy!  Hopefully this is good luck for the whole pumpkin patch!
  • REALLY?!?!?! YAYYYYY CONGRATS! Im so happy for you! Your the first to start the wave! I hope it carries the rest of us away!
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  • Congrats!  Im so excited for you!  H&H 9 months to you.
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  • That is GREAT news.  Congrats to you!!!!!!!! 
    Marie, wife to Ron, mom to DS
  • STFD!  Wowsers congrats!  Party!!!
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  • YAY!!!!  Congrats!  H&H 9mo to you!!!
  • Congratulations !
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  • Yahoo!!!   Congrats! Let the pumpkin patch wave begin!!! So excited for you :)
  • woo!!!  Congrats!!!!
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  • Congrats!  Sticky baby dust for you!
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  • Congrats!!!!  Hope it's the start of a new wave. 
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  • Yeah!! Congratulations!!!  Big Smile
  • Yeah for you!!!  That is so exciting!  The 1st pumpkin of the patch!

    And this goes for everyone- we have to try hard to not think of our past experiences while we are on a new road.  If we do not treat each situation as a new one than we will only recreate what we already had- so for you- it's a different wedding, a different pregnancy, a different everything...sending you the best vibes possible!   

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  • Wow!  Congratulations!  I am really happy for you! 
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  • Congrats!!!
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