Today is day 6 after finding out at 12.3wks that baby had passed and I had to have my D&C. I had taken off the last few days of work to heal. Yesterday wasn't as bad as other days until DD asked as she was going to bed if I was still sad that the Dr. couldn't find the baby and asked how they took the baby away.
I decided that today was going to be the day I was going to try and get back into the swing of things to help move on. That thought lasted for about 10mins. after leaving the house. I got to daycare to drop off DD at the same time as one of the other children whose mom is about 6-7 months pregnant. As they were saying their goodbye the little boy kept kissing his mommy's tummy and saying goodbye to the baby. My DD just stood there and I started crying. That was TOUGH!!!
Then I had a Dr's appointment for something else and the Dr. asked me how I was feeling and I broke down and told him everything. I don't think the sweet man knew what to do with me. Little did I know though that his practice was on the same floor as an Ob-GYN so I was walking in with pregnant people who were about to pop and ran into the Similac formula sample lady out in the parking lot. Really? I don't know how much longer I am going to make it in "real world" today. I want to go back home and go to bed.
Re: Tough Day - Reality Sucks!
That is still a very fresh wound! Under the circumstances, I'd say you're doing really well.
I think reality is the hardest part of the loss--you not only have to continue on, but you have to carry this loss with you. That's a huge burden to bear.
Take care of yourself. xoxo