Miscarriage/Pregnancy Loss

~Tuesday Confessions~

Hello ladies.  It's that time again.

My confession this week is that DH and I are actively TTC and I'm not sure I'm totally ready.  I really really want a BFP this month.  But when I'm laying in bed at night trying to fall asleep I wonder WTH I'm thinking and why I would take the chance of putting us through another m/c.

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Re: ~Tuesday Confessions~

  • I think everything you're feeling and thinking is completely normal. ?Hang in there and GL!

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    My confession:

    I have a feeling it'll be incredibly difficult for dh and I to wait to ttc again once given the go ahead to have sex. ?Since we had a c-section with Katie Jane we have to wait longer to ttc. ?It'll be hard. ?

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  • Today I had to drive right past my hospital... I pretended I was still pregnant.
  • Today I was working at a college fair and the table right across from my was a girl from another school who I hadn't seen since March. She is obviously pregnant and even though she is very sweet, I couldn't bring myself to talk to her much less look her in the eyes.
  • Let's see.

    I fear the waiting to actually m/c or have the D&C or whatever is lulling me into believing that we will be okay when it actually happens.  In turn, that makes me think we will have a huge crash when it does.

  • Waiting for confirmation of mc. New emotion every minute but right now feeling somewhat relieved and just waiting for the natural process to begin. I knew something was wrong from the get go. I know that is selfish and seems wrong but I was truly not ready for another munchkin. 

    I know everything happens for a reason and I am so grateful but for many reasons that I will not get into it was truly not the right time, I guess my body also sensed that - I KNOW there is never a right time and I must sound horrible right now but you asked for my Tuesday confession... 

  • I'm supposed to wait a cycle before TTC.  I have no intention of waiting.
  • I'm so angry and wish someone would say something stupid to me so I could just go off on them. I think I need to scream and punch.

     

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  • imageMaryEllen:

    I'm so angry and wish someone would say something stupid to me so I could just go off on them. I think I need to scream and punch.

     

    I have often times felt the same. Yesterday two thungs drove by and yelled "nice ass!" I yelled back... I told them to f-off - and that's not even my confession!

    Confession: I started drinking some red wine at 11:24am. ugghhh, who cares! Cheers! :)

     

  • imageroxyttandme:
    imageMaryEllen:

    I'm so angry and wish someone would say something stupid to me so I could just go off on them. I think I need to scream and punch.

     

    I have often times felt the same. Yesterday two thungs drove by and yelled "nice ass!" I yelled back... I told them to f-off - and that's not even my confession!

    Confession: I started drinking some red wine at 11:24am. ugghhh, who cares! Cheers! :)

     

    I considered opening a beer this morning while working (work from home). Don't feel bad.

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  • Yesterday on the el I looked up and saw a girl who was pregant-not hugely, but obviously showing and I couldn't bring myself to stand up and offer her my seat.  Normally I'd jump up and do it but I was too bitter.  I feel like such an a**.

    and for what its worth I'd totally take a beer right now even though I'm at work!

    BFP 4/23/09. D&E 7/17/09 16W5D. BFP #2 3/10/10. EDD 11/15/10 Babycakes was born 11/5/10! Baby Birthday Ticker Ticker
  • I don't know why or how to fully explain it...but I never felt comfortable or connected to my pregnancy.  Ecstatic and elated...hell yes.  But never comfortable with it.  I think it was perhaps my was of protecting myself from what was to come.  I have so much guilt over this. 

  • I don't like to post here like I used to.  I used to like to give support when I could, but now I feel like nobody wants to hear my story because it doesn't end happy and it won't.  I feel like my history will just scare everyone, but it is my life.
    7 mm/c
    APS, hetero factor v leiden & MTHFR
    bfp #1 - 12.11.07, edd 8.14.08, mm/c 1.21.08 (10w4d)
    bfp #2 - 4.4.08, edd 12.3.08, mm/c 5.14.08 (11w)
    bfp #3 - 8.3.08, edd 4.15.09, mm/c 9.17.08 (10w)
    bfp #4 - 1.15.09, edd 9.26.09, mm/c 2.16.09 (8w2d)
    bfp #5 - 6.16.09, edd 2.25.10, mm/c 7.23.09 (9w)
    bfp #6 - 8.12.10, edd 4.27.11, mm/c 9.16.10 (8w1d)
    one more try -> bfp #7 - 2.11, our miracle baby boy arrived 10.11
    ttc again -> bfp #8 - 5.3.13, edd 1.13.14, mm/c 5.30.13 (7w3d)
    bfp #9 - 9.23.13, our miracle baby girl arrived 5.29.14

  • Today I went to my OB-GYN because it's been over a year that we've been TTC. Since I was able to get pregnant, even though I had a m/c in February, he basically acted like I am crazy and gave me a lesson on how to get pregnant that a 5th grader could have picked up on Google. Oh, and he told me there is nothing else he will do for me until next February. AWESOME. Gave serious consideration to drinking red wine when I got home...at 11:00am. Wish I knew I had company here, I definitely would have done it!
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  • I'm not waiting to TTC again either.
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