Preemies

Mixed Emotions

Just found out my SIL is pregnant (honeymoon baby?) and I'm so excited...but i also feel a bit, I don't know, jealous??  I think I miss being pg and we want another one pretty close in age, but not yet.  A) i want to enjoy Carter's first year and be able to give him this attention, B) I need to find a new job where we live now so I won't have to keep commuting 1.5hrs which will begin in february.  Though I'll admit DH and I, on the rare occassion we "do" anything, haven't been 100% careful. 

I think this is one of those examples of "mourning" us preemie moms experience.

ps - this feeling is a bit strange for me, because I often feel guilty on here that I DON'T  feel guilty/responsible about carter's premature delivery - I know it wasn't my fault!  If that makes any sense.

Re: Mixed Emotions

  • We have IF and always wanted a huge family.  After enduring treatments twice, my first son IUGR, and now this I know I shouldn't have kids any   longer.  I've had a lot of the feelings you have.  I try to be big about it but it drives me crazy how "easy" others have kids.  (((HUGS)))  Hang in there!
    Mom to Harmon 1/17/08 and twins Rachel & Callum 8/28/09 Photobucket 29o0v13.jpg
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