Just found out my SIL is pregnant (honeymoon baby?) and I'm so excited...but i also feel a bit, I don't know, jealous?? I think I miss being pg and we want another one pretty close in age, but not yet. A) i want to enjoy Carter's first year and be able to give him this attention,
I need to find a new job where we live now so I won't have to keep commuting 1.5hrs which will begin in february. Though I'll admit DH and I, on the rare occassion we "do" anything, haven't been 100% careful.
I think this is one of those examples of "mourning" us preemie moms experience.
ps - this feeling is a bit strange for me, because I often feel guilty on here that I DON'T feel guilty/responsible about carter's premature delivery - I know it wasn't my fault! If that makes any sense.
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