DD still does not sleep (Ferber is happening shortly, other methods have not worked), my project is about to get really busy, we are happy with one, I want my old body back and more time to work out, and to not be tired all the time. And I wasn't exactly enthused about pregnancy, although I was thrilled to be having a baby.
So why do I occasionally have the idea to get tipsy and get try knocked up again? WTF is wrong with me?
ETA: I am not sure if this is like russian roulette for me, seeing as it took almost 2 years and 3 IUIs to get pg.
Re: I think I've lost it completely
I know an awful lot of people who had a hard time the first time around and then amazingly easy time (read: OOPS!) the second...It's almost like the pregnancy shocked your system back into working correctly.
I remember getting really nostalgic when DD was starting to get more independent, like 9+ months or so. I had to drive by the birthing hospital every day since her daycare was across the street, and I found myself longing to be back there, with child. I think it is just natural--you are in such a whirlwind with your first baby you probably feel like the early stuff slipped by so quickly. I wanted it back, with time to appreciate it. Even now that I have 2 and DS will most likely be our last, I get that "what about one more" feeling every so often.
And then I have to pay my daycare tuition and the feeling goes away.
Smiles, that's what I'm afraid of. And I don't know wtf I am thinking, seeing as I'm so sleep deprived I go to bed at 8:30 most nights just to get an extra hour or so on the front end.
I'm happy with an only. Whythehell would I even consider another pregnancy?
Insanity.
I think that once you get your DD to sleep you will realize that you can sort of do more. I am not saying you should have another one if you're not ready or don't want one (I don't even know you :-) but I will say that once my DD was sleeping through the night I was able to function better at work and snuck in my work outs at lunch. Still, it took me two years before I knew I was ready for another one and here I am about to have one.
That being said, if you think it's hard now, why even take the risk in becoming pregnant and then have two babies so close in age. That seems as if it would be something to really lost it over.
I'm going through this exact same thing...my baby isn't even 5 months old, we are 100% ok with having only one child, and I am thinking all the time about being pregnant again and having another baby. I loved being pregnant and my DD is a total angel baby...so that's why it's so easy for me to envision another perfect pregnancy and perfect baby.
Writing the check to daycare helps me think clearly. Also shopping for my normal size of clothing helps ALOT.