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I really feel like crying right now

I am so upset. Well, first of all, yesterday was 1 year since my m/c, so it was a hard day. Then yesterday I find out that a friend I didn't expect to be pregnant was pregnant. I'm thrilled for her but it was hard to hear.

Well today I get online and see an email from my mom. My cousin, who has no job, no education, is on welfare, boyfriend (baby daddy) is in jail and they are together anymore, she lives with her mom who is also broke, no money and has a lot of medical issues including depression, just found out she is pregnant for the 2nd time. She also has HPV which progressed into cervical cancer. Her daughter just turned 2.

I am devastated. How is it that SHE can get pregnant but I can't??? What is wrong with me?  Why is this happening? It has been hard between last week and this week. Very, very hard. We are one, maybe 2 cycles away from going on a break until next year so we can save money. Why did we do everything right and we aren't able to have kids, but she didn't do it right, and my brother didn't do it right and they are having kids. I am half expecting another pregnancy announcement to come from my brother and his gf (in a similar situation as my cousin, minus the jail thing).

It isn't fair. I feel awful right now.

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  • Hi Abbie, I know it's hard to hear announcements like that. It seems like the only ones popping them out rapid-fire are the ones who can't afford or take care of them. So frustrating.  Just wanted to say I'm praying for a BFP in the next couple of cycles for you. You deserve to be a mom. ((hugs))
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  • I'm crying for you.. I know how you feel (minus the m/c) i have about 12 friends that either have newborns, are about to give birth, early pregnant and are trying to get pregnant.  Everyday someone has some sort of news that is trying on my emotions.

    hang in there..

  • I'm so sorry you are having to deal with this all at once. Hang in there and stay stong. *hugs*
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  • It sucks how so many of us do the right things, do them in order, and we're the ones that get stuck with IF.

    It's just not fair. I don't have any words of wisdom, but know that you're not alone. ((hugs))

  • i'm sorry you are going through this.  hugs:::
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  • ::hugs:: I am so sorry that you've had a crappy past couple of days. I hope tomorrow is better!
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  • Hang in there!!!  ::hugs::  I know it's not easy!!  Stay positive!
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  • (((HUGS))) Sometimes it seems the only people with IF are the ones that do it right. I'm so sorry. Praying for a BFP for you!
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  • I'm so sorry. There is nothing fair about IF at all. I wish I had a magic wand so I could make things right for all of us. Try to do something nice for yourself today. (((((hugs)))))
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  • (((hugs))) I hate this for you. 
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  • So sorry Abbie.  IF blows and is not fair on so many levels.  It's not fair that anyone has to experience IF and that pg comes so easily to people who can't even provide for a child.  Hugs.
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  • Abbie, I'm so sorry. I went through the same things with cousins who drank and smoke while pg, were unemployed, etc. Its so hard to watch family members excited for someone who didn't want a baby nearly as much you do. I hope there are no more announcements for a while. (((hugs)))
  • (((hugs)))

    i am so sorry that the realities in life just seem to be slapping you in the face. and doing it when you are already tender, b/c of the anniversary. my heart reaches out to you and i hope that peace overcomes the trials.

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  • ::::big big hugs::::
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  • Oh Hon, I'm so sorry.  Saying that it isn't fair doesn't even being to explain what this situation really is.  I'm am sending you tons and tons of positive thoughts that your next cycle is THE cycle that works for you.  You deserve it more than words can say!!!
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  • I am so sorry to hear you are having all of this thrown at you at one time. Hugs.

     

  • I'm so sorry, it just isn't fair at all.  Hugs to you!!
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