I am so upset. Well, first of all, yesterday was 1 year since my m/c, so it was a hard day. Then yesterday I find out that a friend I didn't expect to be pregnant was pregnant. I'm thrilled for her but it was hard to hear.
Well today I get online and see an email from my mom. My cousin, who has no job, no education, is on welfare, boyfriend (baby daddy) is in jail and they are together anymore, she lives with her mom who is also broke, no money and has a lot of medical issues including depression, just found out she is pregnant for the 2nd time. She also has HPV which progressed into cervical cancer. Her daughter just turned 2.
I am devastated. How is it that SHE can get pregnant but I can't??? What is wrong with me? Why is this happening? It has been hard between last week and this week. Very, very hard. We are one, maybe 2 cycles away from going on a break until next year so we can save money. Why did we do everything right and we aren't able to have kids, but she didn't do it right, and my brother didn't do it right and they are having kids. I am half expecting another pregnancy announcement to come from my brother and his gf (in a similar situation as my cousin, minus the jail thing).
It isn't fair. I feel awful right now.
Re: I really feel like crying right now
I'm crying for you.. I know how you feel (minus the m/c) i have about 12 friends that either have newborns, are about to give birth, early pregnant and are trying to get pregnant. Everyday someone has some sort of news that is trying on my emotions.
hang in there..
It sucks how so many of us do the right things, do them in order, and we're the ones that get stuck with IF.
It's just not fair. I don't have any words of wisdom, but know that you're not alone. ((hugs))
Me: PCOS/Amenorrhea DH: Azoospermia due to Y Chromosome Micro Deletion IVF w/ ICSI on hold until further notice
Hope
SAIF Always Welcome
Diagnosed with PCOS: 10/03, On BCP to "treat" until: 7/09
Provera to end Cycles 1-9 (anovulatory)
Cycle #4 & 5: Clomid 50 mg FAIL
RE Visit: 2000 mg Metformin
Cycle 6:Forced Break, looking for androgen secreting tumor
Cycle 7:Clomid CD 3-10, 12-17 FAIL
Cycle 8: Clomid CD 3-10, Bravelle CD 12-24 Hyperstimmed
New RE: Put on Byetta, lost 23 lbs
Cycle 9: Financial Break
Cycle 10: Femara CD 3-7, IUI CD 17 BFP on 2/14/11, m/c 3/7/11
Unexplained Infertility
After two Clomid cycles, three injectable IUI cycles, two IVFs, two miscarriages, and one lap surgery, IVF #2 has brought us our little boy!
TTC #2
After months of being postponed or cancelled, FET #1.3 (Natural FET) brought us twin girls!
(((hugs)))
i am so sorry that the realities in life just seem to be slapping you in the face. and doing it when you are already tender, b/c of the anniversary. my heart reaches out to you and i hope that peace overcomes the trials.
Tara & Dave - TTC since September 2006
PCOS - dx 1999 (amenorrhea) | freakishly long fallopian tubes
Hypoglycemic | thyroid issues | severely anemic
Multiple Clomid cycles of 50, 100, 150 - absolutely no response
Follistim 50/100 | Follistim 75/125 | Follistim 100/150 IUI - all BFNs
Converted IVF - BFP - m/c | FET - BFN | IVF #2 = BFN
IVF #3
I am so sorry to hear you are having all of this thrown at you at one time. Hugs.