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Will you take me back? (re-intro -- long)

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Hi ladies, I was on this board about 2 months ago, when DH & I were ttc after our 2nd loss. (see siggy) We just got confirmation last week that the heart beat stopped, my betas were not doubling like they should & I'm currently waiting to m/c. It feels weird to go through this a 3rd time, but I feel like I know what to expect, which in a way is comforting.

This time has been oddly different. Althought DH & I are devestated, we have tried to be optimistic in the sense that if this pg continued, there would have been other concerns based on my slow/low hcg levels. I have decided to totally come out of hiding regarding this loss, and we are telling friends and coworkers. Today was my first day back to work after taking several days to digest info from last week's dx. I have told all of the staff I supervise at work, my boss, and several other coworkers. I know that this isn't for everyone, but I have to tell you, it's like a huge weight off my shoulders! It's like I'm not keeping secrets, and can be open about how I'm feeling! It feels great to talk openly about this!!!

Additionally, with my newfound confidence and positivity, I enjoy being here to share with you ladies. Although DH & I will be taking several cycles off, I feel more comfortable here as my grief is not as bad as past pgs. This is so weird. I'm sure I'll have bad days to come, but I'm still riding high feeling so open and honest with people. And suprisingly, 2 IRL friends have come out and expressed that they have also had recent m/cs! I hope you ladies will welcome me back, and I look forward to seeing many of you graduate soon to SAL!! (& thanks for reading my short story..)

BFP#1 1/27/09 :: Natural m/c 2/6/09 @ 6w
BFP#2 5/11/09 :: Natural m/c 5/27/09 @ 5w5d
BFP#3 7/24/09 :: Missed m/c, baby stopped growing at 6w4d :: natural m/c 8/28/09 @ 8w6d
BFP #4 11/27/09 :: DD born 7/27/10
BFP #5 2/29/12 :: DD born 11/6/12

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Re: Will you take me back? (re-intro -- long)

  • Shannon1110Shannon1110
    I'm so sorry for your loss.  I'm glad you've found some peace.  I found that once I was ready, talking about the miscarriage made me feel so much better. 
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  • lil_rhodylil_rhody member
    I am so sorry that you have to return here, but I am happy to hear that you are able to turn this into something positive for you!
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  • candycane3tcandycane3t

    I am sorry for your losses, but of coarse we welcome you with open arms!

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  • gomez_917gomez_917
    Iam so sorry for your loss I have had 4 M/C's and I completely understand when you say its comforting because you know what to expect.  I couldn't agree more.  I hope you get your sticky baby soon.  ((hugs))
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  • soontobemrsvegasoontobemrsvega
    Im so sorry your back here again I think we need to have a talk with your (and all of ours) ute and tell it whats what! I hope the next baby is your sticky baby!! ((HUGS))
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  • KK2004KK2004 member
    I'm so sorry for your loss.  HUGS!
    Baby Birthday Ticker Ticker M/C #1 - BFP 12/28/2008. Confirmed m/c at 6wks - blighted ovum on 1/9/2009. M/C #2 - BFP 6/16/2009. Confirmed m/c at 7wks - blighted ovum on 7/1/2009.
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  • Addicted2thenotAddicted2thenot member
    Oh, Ping I am sorry (((HUGS)))

    I am so sorry that you are back :O( I know it sucks to return to TTCAL.
    I could have written your post after my second loss.
    I also have an open approach to  TTCAL  & both losses. Just about anyone who I actually come into contact with on a daily basis knows what I have been through & that we are TTC again. I agree it is somewhat refreshing to talk about it.

    It sounds like you are in a healthy place with this loss. when there are bad days we will be here for you 

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  • Leah&ColeLeah&Cole member

    I'm sorry that you are coming back here.... going through multiple losses is so devastating.  I'm glad you've been able to find some peace and that you've got a welcoming place to come back to.

    Take care!

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  • JenPVHJenPVH
    I am so sorry for your loss and thank you for sharing.
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  • LC0479LC0479 member
    I'm so sorry that you have to be back here, but glad to see you are being optomistic! Everyone is here for support if you need it!
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  • JacquiemarkJacquiemark
    I am so sorry for your loss and that you are going through this again. My thoughts and prayers are with you and your DH.
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  • L2theC42L2theC42

    ping ~~ I love your peace & optimism.  it's nothing to be ashamed of at all.  I am sorry you are going through these losses (I had my 3rd this weekend). Keep working with DH & they will make you stronger.  And a baby will come to you.

    Page if you want to talk or anything!

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  • TravelinMamaTravelinMama member
    I'm so sorry for your loss, but at the same time glad you've found some comfort and peace in it. 
    Marie, wife to Ron, mom to DS
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  • ColindaPColindaP member
    Sorry for your loss. I'm glad you have such a healthy, positive outlook though.?
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