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I was doing "okay" until today...

pbhennessypbhennessy member
in Miscarriage/Pregnancy Loss
I managed to get through the work week with significantly fewer crying spells.  Today I went to my doctor's office to have another set of hcg levels drawn.  It brought back so many sad memories... seeing the bench where DH and I sat just last week and cried after we found out about our loss... and then I thought about what we were supposed to be doing this weekend.  Today I was supposed to be packing to go to NY and finally share our news with our parents.  I was supposed to be framing the u/s pics to give each set of parents.  I was supposed to be excitedly going over the plans of how we were going to share our news.  Instead, I went to the clinic to have my blood drawn to show how "not pregnant" I am anymore.  I'm so sad =(
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Re: I was doing "okay" until today...

  • summerbee1summerbee1 member

    It's ok that you are sad, I have the same thoughts, "this week I would have been 12 weeks and we would be telling everyone," "this week I was going to have CVS testing done" "this week I should be....still pregnant!" I went to the same clinic where I had my first two ultrasounds (that showed a heartbeat!) the other day to meet with my gynecologist and I was sad, thinking that only a few weeks earlier I had been listening to the heartbeat and watching our little one on the screen...

    It is sad. I'm so sorry that you are having to go through this. Every day gets a little better, as I'm sure you are noticing. Just be strong and know that there are a lot of other women going through the same thing and you are not alone. We know your pain.

    I hope I helped some...

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  • amandaoooooamandaooooo member

    It's natural to be sad, you lost your baby. I am sad too. Last night I went to a baby delivery that needed some NICU help and the Doctor delivering the baby was the one who gave me the "bad news". He is not my usual Doc, my NT scan was done at a childrens hospital not my OB's office. My heart stopped when I heard his voice, I did not even need to look at him to know who it was, and we only met once.

    I had to use a lot of white-out on my calender to remove all the baby related notes, its been really rough. You are allowed to grieve, this sucks!

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  • picaronapicarona

    Amanda I had to white out my calendar too which sucked.  I had written on every Tuesday how many weeks I would be because that was the day I changed over. Then I could flip ahead to see where I would be at Christmas or whatever.  So now I have that stupid reminder on every Tuesday.

    to pbhennessey, being at the doc's office is HARD.  bad memories and lots of pregnant women.  It's definitely a setback.  Hugs to you.

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  • priya&peterpriya&peter member
    You are definitely allowed to be sad.  It isn't easy.  in fact it is so so so hard.  I found out 12 weeks and 5 days ago, and I still get so sad when I start to think about it.  I wish I knew what to say that could make you feel better now, but the good news it does get easier.  big hugs to you.
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