BIG FAT VENT

zoology2 · August 2009

My little miss Avery is in the NICU right now and has been for a little less than a week. She started having seizures and they are unexplained. When she first came home she was on an oxygen tank for her undeveloped lungs. But we were very fortunate she was in the NICU for a week and 3 days before she could come home (which is unheard of for babies born at 35 weeks), so now I'm just scared...

Just to add to it, we had to put down DH's dog. I mean this dog was his EVERYTHING (he's had him since college)! And now he is so upset and there is little I can do or say to make him feel better. Luckily, my cousin took some really good pictures of his dog at the beginning of this summer and I was able to do a collage of his puppy dog for him. It's now hanging in one of our hallways and everytime he sees it, he tears up. I just feel so bad for him, having our baby in the hospital, his dog having to go and he still having to work because he can't take any vacation because of the long family one we are taking in October.

And on top of this, DD1 doesn't understand the concept of 'doggy heaven' or who God is. She has non-stop asked "who this God man" was and doesn't want daddy's doggy to sleep on the clouds. She wants to see him one more time and there isn't anything I can do about it. So now she's not sleeping at night and I have to lay by her bed all while I feel I should be at the hospital as well. And now that DS sees that DD2 is not here, he's constantly wanting to still nurse (although i've "weaned" him 2 and half months ago) and there isn't anything I can do about that either.

I just feel so helpless. While I'm trying to worry about my health and well-being, everything else has to pile on top of it as well. Ugh...I just need a chill pill before I have a mental breakdown and pull out the little hair that I do have out.

If you made it this far, God bless you and sorry! Vent/

dec05gurl · August 2009

awww, honey...hang in there! I can't imagine having 3 kids under 4, not to mention everything else you're going through right now...you're doing a great job! Prayers & hugs for you & your family. Let us know how Avery does over the next few days.

MustLoveCats · August 2009

I am so sorry you are going through this. This is a lot to handle at the same time. Hang in there and I will be thinking about you and your family!

mandarod · August 2009

I'm so sorry you're having to go through all of this right now. Hang in there and take it one day at a time. Your family and your sweet little dd are in my prayers.

mustangsallie · August 2009

Oh my... I am so so sorry for EVERYTHING. What a horrible situation all around. I have no words except just hang in there.

I am praying for miss Avery to get well soon and that your family can can come to grips with losing their dog. I am so sorry.

iowandfw · August 2009

WOW, this is alot for a person to handle. I hope that Avery comes out of NICU soon. And your poor husband. Would this be a better time for him to take off of work, and you all not go on your long vacation? I don't think I could manage this all on my own.....

Jessibell · August 2009

iowandfw:
WOW, this is alot for a person to handle. I hope that Avery comes out of NICU soon. And your poor husband. Would this be a better time for him to take off of work, and you all not go on your long vacation? I don't think I could manage this all on my own.....

Exactly this. I don't know how anyone could handle all that on their own.

Twin_Stones_in_the_Oven · August 2009

Vent all you need!! One person going through all that is hard!! Your daughter is in my thoughts and prayers...

Poor DH and his dog. Hopefully, he will start remembering the good times and not be grieving so much... that was he can help with DD1 and DS.

daveshell1 · August 2009

Oh my gosh, Im sooo sorry. How scary for you and your family. You all will be in my thoughts and prayers.

jfarmer27 · August 2009

Prayers and thoughts for your family. Keep us posted on sweet little Avery.

bnljane1988 · August 2009

I can't even imagine. Hang in there, eventually this will pass. In the meantime, I'm keep you and your family in my prayers.

Zombii hugs Left Hug Right Hug

char-char · August 2009

Wow, that is definitely a lot, more than a lot, for one person to handle. I am definitely sending good thoughts and prayers for your sweet Miss Avery and hope that she gets better and is able to come home soon. Hopefully, everything else will settle down for you as well...I can't even imagine.

katherinemichel · August 2009

Oh my goodness, that is way too much. I can't even imagine. Hang in there and things will get better. I'll be keeping your family in my thoughts and prayers.

amanda7207 · August 2009

You must be one strong person to be able to handle all that. I was over here feeling sorry for myself b/c my DH is working countless hours and I pregnant dealing with a sick 1 yr old. Shame on me. ((hugs)) I hope Avery gets better real soon and comes home quickly. You'll be in my thoughts and prayers. Please keep us updated!'

reynah · August 2009

Oh honey, I am so sorry. Avery is definitely in my prayers. When it rains it pours. Trust that God has a purpose for all of this and that He will take care of Avery. Vent all you need, we are here ::HUGS::