So I went into the office to sign a release form for my files (for my 2nd opinion consult), and planned on getting in and getting out.
As I was filling out the form, the nurse came over and asked how I was doing. I just burst into tears. She asked me why I thought the cycle didn't work, and I was telling her about my BFN this morning and that I should have a positive test by now...that my beta should be at least 25 at this point.
She kept saying it was early and I told her I hope I'm wrong...but she did say that it's possible it didn't work, but we have to hang in there until Friday.
I'm going to to into the office Friday morning instead of Labcorp to speed up the b/w process.
I'm so embarassed for being such a mess.
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Don't be embarassed. I burst into tears getting my blood drawn for my beta. They know it is an emotional process and they are used to it.
ETA: And I hope they are right that it was too early and your beta is a BFP on Friday!
I am so sorry you are having a difficult time but I wouldn't be embarassed-I am sure the RE's and nurses have come accustomed to this- just the other day right before my IUI, my nurse told me my DH's count and I got totally weepy - the count was normal, but the whole process is just so emotional. Sometimes just walking into that office makes me an emotional wreck and for some reason, I cry in the car after every visit-even when it is just my CD3 u/s. Don't be embarassed, cry some good tears and hope you have GL on Friday!
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Don't be embarrassed. Everyone breaks down and you've been through a lot. I hope you get good news on Friday. Take care of yourself.
Don't be embarassed! Sometimes I think "How are you doing?" is the worst question there is. If people don't really want to know, they shouldn't ask.
I'm so sorry you are having a rough day. I hope the nurse is right and that it is too early. I'm sure she understands that this is an emotional time for you. Your reaction was perfectly natural. (((((hugs)))))
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Don't be embarassed at all. This process is so taxing emotionally and physically. And the nurses (the good ones) know that. I break down every beta test I have. Because I have usually POAS and seen the BFN right before I go over there.
The last time, the nurse was so great, she actually took me into a private room to take my blood. She said she wanted to give me a chance to calm down without an extra set of eyes on me. She said that when we "know" it is a BFN, every look from a Dr. or nurse brings on a new round of tears. She also told me that I shouldn't be so hard on myself for feeling so bad when I get a BFN.
That is my advice to you. Feel bad. You are heartbroken, and you shouldn't have to hide that.
Don't be embarrassed hun... I've broken down many times at my RE's office, with everyone! Nurses, Doctors, and even at the checkout desk! They are very understanding, and always offer hugs.
::hugs:: Hang in there. Keep the faith
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