Ok so I feel really guilty for feeling this way but I still get a little jealous of people who get pregnant, have no problems and are just over the moon to be pregnant. A good friend of mine is pregnant and believe me I am so excited for her! I would never wish what I went through on my worst enemy. It just got me thinking because tomorrow I have my first ultrasound and I am beyond nervous. To make it worse DH can't go with me he has to stay home with DS, you can't bring kids there. They truly don't realize how lucky they are that they can just enjoy their pregnancy, and I will always have reservations about getting excited too soon. The other day I was talking to her(the preg friend) and she said "your pregnant too" I told her no I'm not pregnant until I see that heartbeat and I am well into my second trimester. Ok I'm rambling sorry wish me luck tomorrow!
Re: Can I do a confession?
Don't feel guilty. It's normal after going through a loss. I totally understand.
Good luck at your appointment tomorrow, I'll be thinking of you and I hope it goes great - please update afterwards!
I can definitely understand. ?I felt that way earlier on when I'd go to 1st tri and people were planning their nurseries at 5 weeks...I was still saying "if there's a baby in there".
Hang in there. ?For me, I started to feel like more of a "normal" pregnant person as the 1st tri went on and things looked good (saw the h/b at about 9w, again at 10w, heard h/b by doppler).
Good luck tomorrow!!?
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