I'm just sick even typing this out.
We were at the gym and the rainstorm came up just as we were getting ready to leave. The car was parked close to the entrance, so I got my towel and covered Marion up (of course the umbrella was in the car and no on at the gym was going to help us.) I wasn't even running, just fast walking to the car and slipped and fell on the pavement, as I was holding Marion.
I managed to get my body twisted so that she landed mostly on me. I fell on my side and kept her up on my chest for the most part. Her head did clunk the cement, but not very hard, my elbow got most of it.
Not a single person came out to check on us, and of course, it happened right in front of everyone.
I just went to the car in tears, Marion was screaming and it was just horrible. She was more upset by getting the rain in her face than she was hurt and she calmed down as soon as I got her in the car and gave her a cup of milk.
But still, ugh ugh ugh. I'm so pissed no one even checked on us and I just feel hollow inside when I think about what could have happened if I hadn't been able to cushion her landing.
ick ick ick.
I've been following Stellan's journey today (the link takes you to the blog, read only with tissues nearby) and I don't know how she does it. I don't know how Kathy and Brooke did it either - watch your babies and not be able to help them. I never realized how helpless sometimes motherhood makes you feel. I'm going to stop now before I start crying again and can't stop...
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How totally rude that no one came to ask if you were okay. I would call the gym and complain.
I had the helpless mommy feeling a few weeks ago. L is trying so hard to be a big girl and stand on her own. I had both hands and I let go of one as she let go with the other. She fell flat backwards. DH instantly gave me the evil eye while L is crying the loudest I've heard her cry in ages. I felt miserable for about a week.
Definitely don't beat yourself up with the what if's, falls happen, which is why I told L she'd just have to roll everywhere always bc I can't keep her from every fall.
Stellan seems to be pretty popular today and I am not up for what I might read.
I'm so sorry Kat...I'm constantly terrified I'll fall down the stairs with Millie. I hope you're ok and just remember that you're a great mom who will protect your girl with every fiber of your being.
Piss on those people who didn't check on you, seriously, eff them!
..hugs..
Hugs, Kat - I hate when people totally ignore the world around them. It's awful. It's so funny (weird, not haha) how much more aware I am of this after having Jackson. I always held doors, or whatever for moms with strollers before him, but never noticed others doing it or not doing it. That's a pretty benign example, but I notice it so much more now. It's really sad how people can live in their own bubble.
I'm glad you and Marion are okay!
I hate when something like this happens. It makes me sad that society is like this. For some reason, I've heard a lot about this, and "good sumaritan laws" lately. The news said something about people afraid of getting sued for helping someone in need. Sad.
I've had a few times where we stopped to help someone... Once we saw an old man literally collapse before our eyes on a sidewalk as we were driving by (diabetic)... And once we came upon a bad (small child fatality) car accident and the person I was with was a Red Cross instructor, so we stopped to help (this one still haunts me)... Just a few months ago, Larry and I saw an old lady trip and drop her groceries in the parking lot - of course Larry ran to help.
I just don't get how people can see someone struggle and keep walking.
And so weird that you just posted about Stellan. I just found that blog today and spent the afternoon bauling, as I was reading through their journey. So sad. :-(
I know! I talked to my grandma yesterday and she told me she fell while getting the mail. She lives on a busy street and no one stopped to help her. She said she had to crawl to a post to get herself up, she's 87 years old!! I want to cry just thinking about it!
The general public needs to get their collective heads out of their asses.
The GP is a bunch of douches, for the most part. I hate that! It's like people don't believe in helping out their neighbor anymore. So sad.
((hugs))
Also worth noting, you're a wonderful mother and you know you'd do anything for M! Don't beat yourself up and know you did everything you could to protect her in that situation.
I can't believe no one came to help you!!!! Seriously???
I once helped a woman who face-planted on the sidewalk in chicago while wearing her baby in a bjorn, and it still haunts me. THe baby was fine - just had a little scrape on his nose, but I had the shakes ALL DAY thinking what could have happened to his little head.
Mother's Day, 2011
Kat - so glad to hear that you and Marion are okay - that's the important part. It just sickens me that people can just ignore things that happen right in front of them. What is wrong with this world where the fear of a lawsuit prevents us from helping someone who is in trouble - or at least just checking on them to make sure they're okay. :::vent over::::
Accidents happen - don't beat yourself up. You're a wonderful mommy - and don't ever forget that!
Sara
Aww, Kat. I'm sorry you had to go thru that. I can't believe that no one helped you. I wouldn't care if I got soaked, I would have still gone out there and made sure you were ok.
I always fear me falling down stairs with Gracie or tripping and me falling not being able to catch her.
~GRACIE JEAN 7-5-08~