Waiting to find out if there's a *real* *live* baby feels worse than waiting to find out if there's a positive pregnancy test! I mean, at least during the 2ww you get to drink
(Or at least I do!) And here I am, about to be MOH in sister's wedding, and I don't get to have a glass of champagne (or 10!) But yet I'm sitting here doubting whether I'm "really" pregnant at all. *Not* that the champagne's the most important thing! It's just such a strange limbo feeling right now.
Sorry to be a downer (but I don't feel appropriate asking this on TTTC or wherever else) - does anyone know whether there are any signs or symptoms (or lack thereof) or anything prior to learning that there's not a heartbeat? Or do your betas still go up and your body still thinks it's pregnant? "Last time" my first u/s was so soon after my last beta that I didn't even have time to think about this. . .
Re: Worse than the 2ww
I hope you get a free pass to a H&H 9 months. no worries...
But I know that I had an early m/c and my betas were not doubling so it was a good indication things were going downhill and there was something wrong with the baby (chromosomes).
I hope all is well in the next two weeks, skip the champagne, but celebrate that you are having a baby!!
Ughh - I can't even imagine the stress. I know when I was freaking out about things working out for me I just kept telling myself that there is a better chance that things will work out than that they wont, but I'm sure givven your past you really dont want to hear that.
I hope you have an amazing u/s!!!!
i carry your heart with me(i carry it in my heart) Our first love and loss 7/2/07
3 cycles clomid TI = BFNs
3 cycles clomid Ovidrel IUI = BFNs
6/27/08 Surprise BFP = chemical pg
IVF#1 July 08 BFP @7dp3dt
TTC #3 since February 2010
FET Sept. and Oct. 2010=BFN's
IVF#2 June 2011=BFP
Ahhh, the waiting. It never seems to end. Once you make it to the end of one wait, you have to start on the next one! I'm wishing, hoping, and praying everything is smooth for you during this wait and the rest of your pregnancy.
PS. I feel you on the champagne. I had a BFP right before throwing a couples' wedding shower and shortly after found out I really wasn't pregnant I was bummed I missed out! (Although actually being pregnant would've been better!)
PPS. When I saw your post about your BFP I called my DH, mom, and BFF immediately to share the news. They're as excited as I am!
PPPS Can you tell I'm so excited for you?
After a PCOS dx, 18 months of trying, 3 rounds of clomid and 2 follistim IUIs our babies are here!