Why is this month any harder...

ColoradoMelissa · July 2009

than any other month when "it" doesn't happen?!?

I'm out again this month as of this morning with spotting starting.

All kinds of emotions are running through my head...sadness, anger, frustration, worry, even bitterness is starting to creep in a bit.

I know that all of this is normal but for some reason this month it's hitting me harder.

I got into the office today to a new stack of cases...the first two I pick up are chid abuse cases-ARE YOU KIDDING ME?!?!?! And in my crazed mindset right now, this is where the bitterness is creeping, ok who am I kidding flooding in-"how in the world can SHE have 4 kids, and treat them so badly and I can't even get pregnant with one?!?!?"

Sorry...I just needed to get it all out there... I was hoping that it would help me not to cry...no such luck Crying

BrideforKen · July 2009

I'm so sorry. You have a very tough job. It's not fair why screwed up people are able to be parents when more capable one's are not. There is no answer to that. I hope your able to leave work early and have the weekend to get your mind off this. Take care!

ToshaGirl · July 2009

I'm sorry sweetie. Hang in there. Tommorow is another day. ((((hugs))))

joyfulnature · July 2009

I'm sorry, Colorado.

We all have moments of frustration and disappointment, and those child abuse cases certainly do not make it any easier.

((((hugs))))

floridakat · July 2009

I don't understand why either, but some days (cycles) are just harder than others. (((hugs)))

JillAly · July 2009

It's just soooo unfair. I don't know what you do for a living but I am also in job where I see a lot of child abuse and neglect. It is so frustrating and I get so mad at some of the women. But then I think I wouldn't want to be in their shoes either- with no education, no family stability and I realize that there is so much I have that they don't. It doesn't take away the pain of wanting a child but I know they have their own set of problems. I just got my period too so I'm crying with you today!!

krif9@yahoo.com · July 2009

I'm so sorry. It sucks when you want something so bad, and other people, who don't deserve it, get it instead. And it's perfectly OK to cry.

I pray that you have better luck next cycle. Go out and have a glass of wine or get a massage. You deserve it.

NowDNAtoo · July 2009

It's okay to cry and feel bitter. I was a teacher when I was going through my first time trying and it was so hard to deal with parents who just didn't care about their kids education and know that I would be a 1,000 times better of a parent. I hope the weekend is good to you!

taratru · July 2009

*hugs*

mscandyman · July 2009

I've been on that same roller-coaster myself. I try to plan something fun with DH to take my mind off it. Oh, and plans usually include a cocktail...or four.

Feel better Melissa.

MrsKario · July 2009

Im sorry I completely understand the way you are feeling and there is nothing wrong with your feelings.

It is really really really unfair that there a hyper-fertile women like this "lady" who cant take care of their kids......

Do something nice for yourself. You deserve it.

Also - I have so much respect for you for having a job that helps to protect children! Someday you are going to be a great mom yourself.

BirdieBrd · July 2009

Sorry you're having a bad day.

I don't know why some months are harder with AF come than others. I get that way too sometimes...this past month I didn't care when my period started but other months it takes me a couple days to get over it.

hollymichael · July 2009

Sorry you are feeling down. I have noticed that some cycles are harder on me than others. I don't know why that is either. I usually do something nice for myself, ie. shopping, mani/pedi, facial. Hang in there.

panda246 · July 2009

I'm sorry that you're having a bad day. My husband also works in a field where he deals with child abuse and neglect and I understand just how stressful those jobs can be. Sometimes I can tear up just reading a newspaper story about child abuse.

The days will get better...they always do.

peztopper · July 2009

spotting doesn't mean you are out completely. i spotted for 6 days in january then got bfp.?

BUT, it does seem like some months are more difficult than others. sorry your workload doesn't help take your mind off of all this.

hugs.?

itsmexine · July 2009

::hugs:: TTC is such a roller coaster. I wish I knew why some cycles seem more disappointing than others. And I agree it's not fair. I don't understand how she was fortunate to have 4 kids and we don't have any. It stinks.

Dochas · July 2009

I'm sorry. You're probably just exhausted - you can't be strong ALL the time, every month. I also struggle with seeing people who "don't deserve" to have kids. It must be so hard for you to see these cases.

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